120 days hardmode accomplished!!!

Hi everyone!!!!

Another milestone completed. I am so proud of myself. I want to share my thoughts at this point. First of all I did some mistakes by watching YouTube videos and one video let another and I found myself watching hot girls. I got turned on but was much easier to control myself and actually this is one of the benefits I felt mostly this period: Better control of my actions and thoughts. Now I wake up without thinking about porn or fapping and because of that my mind can see the beauty in everyday life. Also I am starting to see women as human beings, to see their beauty and they are beautiful, everyone of them. I am more calm, happy and I can communicate much better. I got some random smiles from girls and felt amazing. The eye contact is better too but still working on it. I am more motivated to do things and I am trying to get better everyday(studying). Just today I went to the gym and pushed my limits very much( I ran 20 km usually I run 8 km) and this wouldn't be possible without semen retention. I went through a flatline too, my morning wood disappeared but now is back again. I want to find love and that's what I am looking for. I don't rush anything it will happen sometime and I know this: whenever I will meet her she can see the best version of myself. Dear fapstronauts thank you very much for the support, I was successful until this point because you exist and when I needed help I always found it here on this website. God bless everyone one of you and I wish you strength to continue fighting, one day at the time, until you are victorious.

 

Thank you!

 

Sometimes I just feel that everything around me is moving in slow motion and I feel so calm and confident, but I feel it just for a few moments. At the beginning of my streak I was counting the days but now I am checking my sobber app time to time just to remind myself where am I. I like to see my clean days because when I see that, the number is getting bigger and bigger it motivates me not to give in because I fight so hard to reach this number. So yeah I will let my counting app going on my phone.

 

My pleasure

 

Thank you