I had never seen anybody the way I see now First of all, the way i see it: I am not a genius, and I don't care if anybody laughs. I am an awkward obsessive guy.. everything about me was gross. NOW that's not true anymore. No fapping has made me a less impulsive I am graduated from Berklee and now I see how goofy and awkward I was.. . I see how nothing was ever so serious. I thought everybody was getting angry at me. And that was just not right... Fapping was a way for me to hide. I've fapped around 3000 times in my life (with so much porn that it's just disgusting to think of myself as I used to be).. It's a horror. and that's it. i don't wanna live like this anymore. so please everyone out there contribute to the cause because being horny doesn't mean that you have to be a loser. i am a new man and i want everyone to understand that it is not so dark to be one, a guy like i am.. i don't wanna repeat myself anymore and i don't yell at myself. i am just a simple, normal human, not such a paranoid android. This has made me into a square.. and the robot in me is slowly going away.. becoming more normal, thankful, easy going, less jealous of everybody.. I still have some self pity.... This is just a step towards becoming freer. peace out!
Keep going! There's a lot to come, don't let anything deter you. When I was a teenager, I felt very awkward and uncertain. I am successful in my life, and I have made my peace with my shortcomings. And, yes-- no fapping has helped a lot!
