100 Days Hardmode

Today is my 100th day on hardmode. I intend to keep this streak going until marriage.

I am very thankful for the grace of God.

What I did differently this time:

• I got accountability from someone who I knew very well and who knew me very well. I cared what they thought of me, and I knew they believed in me.

• I put my phone and the power cord to my PC (I don't have a laptop but the principle works the same) in the basement every night.

• I quit watching ALL TV, MOVIES, OR SIGNIFICANT YOUTUBE CLIPS unless I was with someone else who wanted to watch something. This almost meant quitting TV and Movies completely. I think one of the big struggles is that we are overly sexually stimulated day after day. Removing as many visual cues as possible has made a significant difference.

• I paid attention to my sleep patterns and attempted to go to sleep and wake up at the same time every day. There were a number of other disciplines that were relevant here.

• I slept with a belt on buckled backwards to keep myself from edging in my sleep. I stopped all touching apart from bathroom, cleaning, and occasional adjusting for comfort.

• I started monitoring other parts of my life better: hours of work, workouts, etc. I started working 50-60hrs per week. Staying busy with the right things helps immensely.

• I kept reading books on the subject of sexual purity/pmo addiction and listening to podcasts on the subject.

• I stayed scared. I don't want to go on a 3-6month cycle. I don't want to go back. I remember how horrible it is, and I still fear the possibility of relapse. This is a healthy concern, and motivates me to stay disciplined.

SPIRITUAL DISCIPLINES

• I was more consistent in prayer, Bible reading, Scripture memorization (attempting memorize 1 John) and worship. I monitored these things daily on a whiteboard.