If any of you are wandering what is going on with me, most of you are not.. but yeah, I've given up. In a few years ill come back. Enjoy.
I fail and I give in. I say to myself that I will try, do I really try? No. I give in too easily. Egh, just no comment.
5 days are now gone. Back to 0. I am going to wake up and yeah, I am going to be quite mad at myself, like everybody else, right? Yeah.
Remember that every negative thought you're pointing at yourself wastes your energy (which you also wasted by Ming). Instead, you should just keep calm and think of the reason why you fell and try to solve the problem. Being mad makes you more negative and you probably will just relapse faster than before.
Its ok. thank god my internet broke while i was watching porn on my 5th day, im on my 8th and its hell!!
5 days are NOT gone. 5 days are in the books. Don't let one little zero add up wrong. 5 days is 5 good days. That's the math :)
Day 3. I feel okay. Just tired. Updated my profile picture. This Turkish Airlines 737-9 is from two weeks ago, landing at RWY 28 in Dublin.
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. You can already taken the first step..so congrats
Hey buddy, try to avoid the triggers that caused the relapse ! Learn from it and you'll get stronger for the next try ! :-) Everyday is a new chance to do better ! Don't quit now, just keep going ! You can do it !
Yes, it is a difficult journey at times. It's not going to last forever. As you work on it, it does make you stronger. Keep trying!
how does my brain not understand? controlling it is so hard? why? this is ridiculous.. i relapsed again...
Because pmo weakened your willpower through reducing the grey matter in your frontal lobes ! By abstaining it will strenghten again, it's part of the reboot, so be strong buddy ! You can do it ! :-)
Woke up with not such a big smile on my face, I'll elaborate on that in my diary, because of the word limit here.
Another good day has passed, I am grateful that I am keeping myself busy and productive so the urges can't catch me, and thank you all too.
My 5th day is coming, I am keeping myself busy with my hobbies, school and studying, hope I can get some motivation for the weekend though..
