I relapsed yesterday. Happy that I have refrained from binging, and it appears to be a one off. Fifteen days is my longest streak.
I don't know what I hate more: Not talking to family about problems or talking to family about problems. Outcome is always the same.
Negative outcome? Some families just don’t understand. Have you told your family you have an addiction? I did, it helps.
It just never seems to accomplish anything. I haven't come out and told any of them, but I figure they have to know.
I told mine. Best decision I ever made. Because my internal secret was finally revealed after 13 years.
Upon re-reading what I posted, I now see how that could be a trigger. I didn't realize it at the time.
GO! Set a milestone for each day, reward youself with something new, different or nice, and then say to yourself "This is what I'd be doing if I weren't fapping". Stay engaged! Reward, don't punish!
Coming up on one week today. I have a long way to go. We just need to remind ourselves why we are here and keep going. Good luck folks.
I found that the trick is whether I can build/hold onto compelling new ways to be (or old, as in pre-addiction, for that matter). If not, if there's just a vacuum created where PMO used to be.. a relapse is likely.
I have an energy drink bottle as a water bottle that says "Keep going" in capital letters. I see it every time I drink. I drink about 2 liters every day.
Greatly disappointed in myself lately. Not seeing the progress I had hoped. Have to make some changes.
It's ok to feel disappointment sometimes but don't let it get to your head. Disappointment leads to frustration and frustration leads to PMO.
Missing the benefits I felt from my initial successes. These next two weeks should be easier, so I'm hoping I can regain some success.
Be careful when testing out porn blockers or website restrictions. If your blocking didn't work you may relapse. I did. Start again.
They never worked for me. Even when they did, they were more like vpn which turned off when my IPad restarted. Or I could turn it off myself. Very good uses.
This is a war. Against yourself. I've never wanted to beat the shit out of myself more in my life. The good man in me must be victorious.