Khufu

im that guy who writes, reads, experiencing physcal actitivities and adventures

the reviews spark an unfathomonable lust in me, couldnt or wouldnt?fight the desire to read the novels,i read them, 90 dollars worth of illlegal ebooks 300 pages each, i spent all night reading them,

some where 2$some where 4$, 6am went to bed, woke up 12 afternoon,the desire still there i relapsed again, shower ,went to class, i was doing good at staying away at triggering stuff

i call the ebooks illegal because someone bought them on my account by hacking and without my consent, i understand why theyd spend so much on a bunch of those novels, i pray they heal from pmo fapping

so im stuck with these ebooks a genre i do not touch but i decided to read afew an it was erotic and sent me down a frenzy spiral relapse, its 6am now and im not happy, edging all night grrr

i was behaving so well, a good sleep routine, get things done during the day, i have to do school work all week,what state well i be in today now :(

they probably paranoid wondering what bizzare porn i indulge in everynight,nope thats not me,in two months i indulged only twice n its a genre you can rent on cable tv

accept i relapsed dont think about it,dont feel anything about it, just continue, apply my methods on continuing nofap.

i dont memorize or record the sites for my own good, i considers all p subs the same, i deal with them all the same,

26 days , such a good count, why is fapping to p gotta be so euphoric, i literary feel a magical goo slowing pouring on my brain,looking at these subs grrr

transferring into %
4.96% edging
12.76% relapsing
the last couple months im happy to see lower percentiles

when i dont feel so lazy i well set up an excel sheet for it, it well be way easier an logical

The internet turns fools into keyboard warriors. Minimize your exposure to it and live as much in the real world as possible. Some people chose to remain ignorant of nofap, let them.

It will take time and then you'll understand that even this forum can be like a mine field. You never know how a comment can be taken by someone. Some people just like arguing or are easily triggered.

Learning not to take some criticism personally is a vital skill. You need to ACCEPT that the comments were just words said by someone and nothing else. It's you who is thinking and analyzing them now. That situation is no longer present. You make it present.

my spermies could grow to be doctors ,scientists, innovative thinkers that help society, and heres me exterminating them by the mass thousands by a single fap session, a nuke blast

i feel tired in day,i dont even bother with naps, i just get coffee or energy drink,

you invest any type of thought feeling into it, your allowing it to blaze stronger, the guilt, the failure feeling, the paranoid feeling, any feeling i ignore an i correct methods for it not to happen again

i relapse ok, i dont feel ashamed i dont feel weak or anything, i just realize theres a loophole in one of my methods and i need to reconstruct my method an boom im back on my long steaks again

it feels like i dump my brain in a vat of extasy soup i feel it marinating in there, why do it feel better then the real thing,

That's awesome. Hope you have a great weekend.