silex_jedi

my being is on idle... turning off the computer until tomorrow... i don't need to turn it on until i come back from work.

august was return to nofap, september was getting a good work mindset, what will october's challenge be?

recorded a cover to express my sexual frustration... only to find out i need to practice more my craftsmanship...

terrible mood... everything can go wrong. i'll just put my safety hat on and go to bed. good night.

overcame some weird urge yesterday. i'm wondering if this would have happened if i had gone to bed.

with the help of my bike and little company i made it to a week.

i'm bored... but why do i want to submit to the ultimate illusion of intimacy... no i don't want to be that person. it's been a while.

just posted a thread in relapse reports... thank you for being a supportive community people.

give me the strength to use joy for good things and keep my sanity.

what a messy week... let next week be more committed. i've seen friends so the mood is better :-)

ok. good night. let this night not have too bad consequences on tomorrow.

i will finally get paid! i have an internship.

:'( ok so the internship i was applying for since a few months ago got someone else to do the job :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

i am going to record myself during my sleep and see what happens... i'm a bit weak tonight so let's have something to sleep for.

want it or not, i'm feeling bad tonight. the good thing is tomorrow i'll still be there.

final interview (on monday) for an internship i've been preparing for a long time... just three. more. days. and then the wait.

i might be in pain because of trying to starve my addiction tonight... instead of peacefully sleeping. pray for me.

though i slipped off a lot recently, i actually think that i am not that bad today! i renew my commitment! see you tomorrow!

note to myself. i feel like ####, but with some great progress nonetheless! i am a great ####.

what a weird weekend...