Hang in there. Just as things always seem to get worse, they always have to get better again too eventually. :)
Sorry to hear that. Take your time, no one is rushing you. However, if you have any thoughts about harming yourself or others, let someone know immediately. Your life is very important
I nothing much to control it because much of such behaviors indeed good for me but the problem is I can't concentrate on certain things for long say more than 3 hours and it kills me. I rather make impulsive decision than logical, and it makes me laggard. When I am in such mood suicidal thoughts become crazy.
Damn! I am crying. I am crying like a baby. What I have done with my life. I just fu**ed up everything. EVERYTHING. Every single things.