Day 7: 1 week under my belt and more determined than ever to break this endless harm. Bring on 2022. Keeping strong, keeping busy.
Day 11: fapped this morning but not to porn, 2 hours later had an overwhelming drive to pmo which I’ve resisted.
Day 10: very tough day yesterday, lots of temptation but somehow managed to get through it. Onwards and upwards, Excuse the pun
Day 8: back to my daily log. I’m having thoughts of pmo but I don’t dwell, worse thing is release a trigger which makes stopping futile.
Day 7: so I decided only to post when I reached this milestone..to some not that big but to me so important in that I do have control.
Day 4: 1 more day to break my record. Not been sleeping great leaving me tired n not bothered about porn.
Day 3: just gotta get to end of week. Had a drink tonight which is a big trigger and feel pretty chilled. I so wanna do a week.
Day 1: I lapsed but not getting hung up on that… I learnt something about my triggers. Reset button hit. Aim to get to 5 days. Baby steps.
Day 4: I can feel temptation there. The devil on my shoulder. But the devil doesn’t control me…I do. It’s up to me if I want to be free.
Day 3: Temptation starting. Was in bed and wanting to just look at porn but not masturbate. Avoiding that too.
Day 1: here I am. An addict. But an addict who knows myself and who I want to be. Want to get to Xmas fap free. That’s my present to myself
Day 14: keeping busy and trying not to think about porn. It gets slightly easier each day but watching out for the triggers.
Day 8: got a week under my belt..haven’t posted until I gathered a bit of momentum and felt guilty over constant relapse. Daily posts now.
Day 5: no more. I lose all motivation when I pmo, to exercise to see my friends..it’s so destructive. No no no more! Need to get to 90 days.
Day 4: still daily temptation but I just have to get to a week otherwise who really is pulling my strings? Take back control.
Day 1: I keep relapsing. I hate not having control with low self-esteem. Any advice. I just want to get to my first milestone of a week.
Day 6: multiple relapses. Can’t seem to get past a week. Determined to get to end of tomorrow. I’ve not missed it when I’m busy. Keep busy.
Day 7: no porn in a week. My desire hit rock bottom, makes it easier to deal with but like any addiction i feel it lurking in the shadows.