I know that feeling, but that's all it is. The reality is that you are becoming someone to be proud of. A person who is improving often feels bad, because he sees the evil he had become comfortable with contrasted against the ever growing good he has now committed to.
Know your feeling. Have patience, keep saying to yourself that you're oke and it's just the flatline. You will get rewarded for the persistence.
Had dreams about relapse last night. Hoping today isn't a reflection of the dreams, but already feeling tired today.
It's been pretty difficult today. From 10am-1pm, the urges were out of control. I had to leave the house to stop myself from acting out.
Today is the start of day 3 without PMO and I feel good. I came clean to my wife about infidelities and I'm happy that I could be honest.
She was really calm about it. Basically said that she understood, but that it couldn't happen again. I think she's more hurt than mad, but I am really grateful that she wants to work it out.