I will never do things which are not appropriate and never do things unwillingly which are unnecessary and doesn't need to be done
I've noticed there's a strong conviction within ourselves and if we overcome it we can be free from compulsions and addiction
So it's all depends on me,and I'm good and I'm not what I fear, it's those people in those adult movies,yuck and I'm not among them haha
Impractical fear,unnatural worries and being out of character and the being scared of losing control and doing thing worse,But it's all me
I apologise to those whom i have broken trust,damaged their faith in me or made them sad or made them feel nihlistic,Im sorry for my mistake
And it's my not just responsibility but it's the my duty to end this habit and end this suffering by right thinking,right vision.
I realised being nervous and scared of this habit is the worst aspect and that's absolutely worthless and i feel anger but it's my fault
After just 13 days I tricked myself to slip and i must learn to take my responsibilities and stop blaming others for my mistakes
Counting days won't reverse this addiction,this mindset, you've to learn to behave properly and learn to respect not just others but you.