My brain this addicted shit raised its standard for porn. I didn't relapse to my usual fantasy. I even found new one. I utterly don't
Relapsed three times! How much do I hate myself now. Is it enough are you satisfied stupid addiction fuck you monstrous vampire
Every time you relapse you are getting one step closer to freedom. But don't try to beat the addiction, rather try to understand how you got there; how and why it all started. Once you are clear on the root cause finding strength comes from another level, much stronger than mere resisting the current impulses you have.
I pray the best for you man. Sometimes we need to fall off the wagon multiple times before we stay on. Eventually you'll find a way that works at keeping you on the path. Best wishes. ;)
Thank you guys. I'm emotional now. It's an addiction and sometimes we feel helpless against it. May from our weakness grow strength
Hebrews 13:20-21 (KJV) 20 Now the God of peace, that brought again from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great shepherd of the sheep, through the blood of the everlasting covenant, 21 Make you perfect in every good work to do his will, working in you that which is wellpleasing in his sight, through Jesus Christ; to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.
Here comes 30 days of nofap. Hard and strange month. I certainly grew older by a year at least in this month.
Feeling much better now! Thanks God who give us meaning when we are in dire need of it. Meaning even in small things
The stressor for me is I have to graduate this semester. When I'm under stress I feel so weak. Stress now is kinda at maximum. I hope
Hold on & dont give in.. You'll only feel worse after you fall for the pleasure.. Let the storm pass by.. Cheers!
coping tools are a big part of this battle. continue developing those. in my life, a lot of it comes down to using time wisely.
There was sun yesterday and today. This means I now feel more energetic. Praise God. Most is well. Attended two great church services yesterday.
Loneliness is not something to get rid off. It is to be contended with. Actually it says something loudly but silently
That's very cool. If you have people who accept you for who you truly are this certainly relieves of loneliness. I mean ideas like sexual compulsivity and so which are embarrassing to talk about
Yes it is shameful, but you can work on it. The more you go through your shame the more you become free to share whatever you want. But that's a process.
On the bright side of my life I have lots of things I'm grateful for. For example I love reading so much
I'm currently reading an autobiography of Carl Jung. I read about 120 pages and it's so interesting and a bit frightening lol
Idk why but those kind of great ppl scare me. Examples: Neitszche, Nickola Tesla, Kant and Jung. They are so complex and bright it's hard to track and digest their insights but still nice
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
I decided to go off social media. Twitter and youtube. Day 0 today. May God help me. I really feel my reboot is hindered by these sites
Twitter is device of the enemy used to stupefy the masses who now consider anything over 120 characters an essay. Best to quit bro.
google "facebook depression" and it's been proven by science. less social media = rebooting our real life interactions!
In my experience, focus on 1 thing at a time.. If we try to chew lots at a time, it wont fit in the mouth.. So take 1 like make nofap journey your base then when become stable after flatline & all then quit other addictions as well + incultate good habits to replace them (1 by 1) Cheers!
Sounds like a good routine to stick to. I got out today but there was no sun. The cool air sure was nice, though ;)