Hey @DiogoFSantos. I wasn't able to log in for a while since I got really busy at work. I guess that's also a blessing for me since I didn't get to do anything else for the past few days. Today is still day 6 since the last time I masturbated and watched porn. I have to say though that I have seen some improvements despite the short duration. I'm experiencing morning erections now though it's not that strong. And I haven't been tempted for a while. I hope this will last longer.
Today is Day 8. I feel like I'm starting to get tempted again. I have a lot of work and I am a bit tired but I'm starting to feel the urge again to look at porn. But as of now, I still did not act on it yet.
Among the many common reactions to childhood male/male sexual abuse are the following: (1) confusion about sexuality; and (2) sexual dysfunction. If you haven't addressed your history of abuse in therapy, I'd strongly suggest you do so before concluding that you are gay (or bi or straight or whatever) and before you start gobbling a bunch of drugs and supplements that are supposed to make your dick hard.
Yeah. I'm trying to address my childhood experience but I find it hard to have the courage to do it. I have a feeling that it will help if I am able to face my past but at the moment, I can't see myself even close to doing just that.
It's Day 11. It doesn't seem to get up at all. Lol. I was tempted yesterday to masturbate. (no porn) I did get a bit hard but it didn't last long. I guess my busy schedule helps me a lot cause when I get home, I'm usually to tired to do anything else other than sleep.
Thanks man. I won't. Day 12 and it's going OK I guess. I'm getting a bit worried now though that my buddy down there might be dead. Lol. It doesn't seem to get hard even when I was stroking it a bit a few days ago when I was tempted to masturbate. I'm probably near the point when I will test it out just to check if its still working.
I know... and this erection could be a trigger to relapse. But you must relax and live the reboot, day by day, with your journal and enjoying life porn-free
A few years ago I was very stressed due to life's circumstances at the time and using porn at that stage. I had zero libido and hardly ever got erections and when I did only a pathetic semi at best. Went to doctor. They had a look and a squeeze and said nothing wrong. They then asked me if I got hard in the mornings. We'll, that was the only time anything remotely promising happened and then not convincingly and only occasionally. I explained that to the doctor who said that if morning erections happen then all is well. Got over issue and you would now not know there ever was a problem. This may just help reassure you
Day 15 and everyday for this week has been hard since I get tempted a lot. I almost masturbated in the last 3 days. And yesterday I almost searched for porn.