DAY 22 The day comes and the day goes Each day has it beauty Beauty has its place in my life I have chose to live my life the way that is best for me I made the choice to live my life the way that is right for me This is my life I am ready for this time in my life I am now single and am ready to deal with my life In this period of my life I am ready for abstinence Sex is not important to me Sex is simply not important to me Sex is not necessary for me to be happy I can be happy with my life without sex This is my my choice This is my life I am fine with being me I choose to live my life in the way that is best for me I choose to live my live as me And I am not a person who worries about sex I do not need sex I can live happily without sex As a newly single man my life and my course is to live free Free from obsession with sex I am free from the obsession with sex I am not interested in sex right now I am interested in being the man that I truly am That man is free from obsession with sex I have also committed myself to avoiding any form of porn I do not look at porn and do not want to Porn has no place in my life I do not look at any form of porn or porn subs This is my life and I am not interested in porn I also do not masturbate I do not want to masturbate I know that masturbation and porn are destructive I do not want to do anything that is self destructive I am free from masturbation and porn I do not masturbate I am happy to stay away from masturbation I do not masturbate I don't masturbate I do not masturbate I am not interested in masturbating I know that there will be many women that are attractive but I am not interested in checking them out I do not check out women's bodies I do not want to to look at women's bodies I do not want to be sexually stimulated Women are not important to me I am not worried about being with anyone else I am not lonely I am happy to be by myself for some time I am not worried about finding a woman I do not want to have sex right now I know that my life will be better without sex I can live happily without sex I do not need sex I do not want to fantasize about women I do not fantasize about women I do not look at women's butts I am not intereseted in looking at women's butts I am not interested in looking at women I am not interested in looking at women's breast Women are not the answer to my problems Women and sex cannot make me happy I am happy with myself I enjoy spending time alone getting to know myself I enjoy spending time in the gym instead of worrying about sex I am OK with being without sex I have live the last 300 days without sex and it has not hurt me I have lived the last 300 days abstinent and it has been good for me Avoiding sex and masturbation makes me stronger I abstain from sex I abstain from masturbation I don't need either of those I do not want sex or masturbation Masturbation sucks Masturbation really sucks I hate even the thought of masturbation I am so sick of the feeling that masturbation leaves That is why I never masturbate That is why I hate masturbation I never masturbate I am free from even the desire to masturbate This is my life and I choose to live free from masturbation Masturbation is bad for the soul I am not interested in self abuse I am not interested in doing anything that makes my life worse I am in control of my actions I am in control of my thinking That is the power of freedom from sexual obsession...
Hi RockCloud... It's been going good. I haven't been writing in this board, but have been keeping up the self talk, especially when the temptation hits me. So there is no reset on my MO counter which is now at 40 days... I have intended to keep up the writing through the 30 days, but it looks like I will just have to finish 30 days with a week missing in between... Thanks for your checking in...
So I missed a week in my routine, but am determined to finish 30 days of writing self talk here... So here is DAY 23 This is my life to live I choose the course that I take I am not a victim to my circumstances I am in full control of my actions This is my life... and I am in control of it I have the self control to live according to my beliefs I believe in being morally sound I believe that part of being morally sound is to avoid pornography Part of being morally sound is to avoid masturbation I pride myself on my ability to live according to my choices I pride myself on being able to deal with urges without acting I have chosen to live my life practicing abstinence I practice abstinence in order to grow emotionally I practice abstinence for myself I do not need sex in order to be happy I can be satisfied with life without sex I am satisfied with life without sex Sex is not important to me Sex is a distraction from my success I do not want sex Sex is only meaningful when it is between two people who are committed enough to get married I am not interested in having sex I am not interested in thinking about having sex with anyone I do not check out women or girls I do not want to check out any woman's body I do not check out women's butts I do not check out women's breast I do not want to check out women I choose to not look at women as objects Women are not objects for pleasure Women are unique individuals with complicated personalities Having sex with a woman is not what makes her important to me I am not interested in having sex with anyone that I am not married to. I am not married right now, so I am not looking to have sex any time soon. When my divorce finalizes I will still remain single for a while I always avoid looking at women's butts I always avoid looking at women's butts I do not want to have sex I do not think about having sex with anyone I am happy being single I am happy practicing abstinence Abstinence is opening many doors in my soul to find joy in other areas of life Life is so much more than sex Life is much much more than sex Sex is not important to me Having sex with a woman that I am not committed enough to marry would be disgusting to me I know that I always have to live with the outcome of my decisions. Avoiding sex is very important to me Avoiding sex is critical to my personal success right now. I am not interested in sex I am not interested in starting a relationship with anyone right now... So sex is not in my near future What about masturbation? I have chosen to avoid masturbation for the rest of my life I do not masturbate I am not a masturbator I choose to avoid masturbation I do not masturbate I hate masturbation I hate the way that masturbation leaves a person feeling Masturbation is a weakening habit Masturbation is a thief of power Masturbation makes a man weak I am not weak, and do not want to be I choose to avoid masturbation forever I do not masturbate ever I am committed to my personal growth Personal growth requires avoiding activities that are self destructive Masturbation is self-destructive I can lay in bed without thinking about masturbation I do not masturbate I do not want to masturbate I do not fantasize about women. I do not fantasize about women I do not look at women to check out their beauty or body I am not looking to get into another relationship right now I want to be finished with all sexual issues when I decide to start dating again I am a good man I am an honest man I choose to keep myself strong and faithful to my principles My principles cover the avoidance of pornography, soft porn, porn subs, sexual fantasies, and masturbation I avoid pornography like it were a bowl of vomit I avoid porn subs like a bowl of steaming crap I avoid sexual fantasies like they are burning heat I avoid masturbation like it is a small spark that creates a forest fire I am not willing to destroy myself I am not willing to destroy the lives of others I care about the people who care about me and do not want to hurt them. This is my life and I get to choose what I do and don't do I do good things for people I do good things for myself I am proud of the person that I am I do not do things that take away my self respect I do not do things that cause me to be weakened I do not entertain ideas that can lead to wrong actions I want only the best for myself I choose to live according to the moral principles I have taken into my life I hate masturbation I hate the thought of feeling sickened after masturbating I love the feeling of being away from masturbation for the rest of my life I love the feeling of knowing that this is the end of masturbation in my life I an glad to go forward in my life and pursuit of happiness I know that I can remain happy without sex or masturbation I know that this is my life and I will live it according to my true self
DAY 24 Each day can test my resolve to be my True Self Each day I pass the tests of my resolve to be my True Self Being my true self is what makes me who I am Who I truly am is a man with integrity I have the integrity to live by my moral standards I have the integrity to control my thinking patterns I have the integrity to treat women a people and not objects I am a man of integrity I have learned the negative effects of masturbation I recognize that although masturbation feels good for a moment it has a long term negative effect Masturbation causes depression Masturbation causes lack of self esteem Masturbation causes a guilty conscience I do not want to masturbate I hate the effects of masturbation I hate the way that masturbation makes one feel I hate masturbation I do not masturbate I choose to never masturbate again I have made up my mind to never masturbate again I am not a masturbator I am not a masturbator I do not masturbate I keep my mind free from sexual thoughts I do not ponder upon sex I do not care to think about sex Sex is meaningless to me I do not care about sex I do not want sex I do not need sex to be happy I have chosen a beautiful path to self discovery I have chosen a path of abstinence in thought and deed I do not want to think about sex I do not think about sex I do not care about sex I am not interested in watching anything that creates sexual thoughts I do not want to think about sex I do not want to look at women I am not interested in looking at women I do not care about women’s butts I do not look at women’s butts I do not look at women’s breast I do not look at women’s crotches I am not interested in looking at women I do not fantasize about women I do not mentally undress women I am free from the desire to check out women I am free from the desire to look at women’s body parts I have no desire to check out women I am a single man and choose to be chaste in my thoughts and actions I have chosen the path of abstinence This is my life and I choose what paths to take The world around me does not dictate my path for me My path is the one that will lead to the best results for me I choose to live my life according to the moral statutes that I have accepted That is why I believe that sex should only be within a loving marriage If I am not your husband, I am not your lover I have the will power to resist the sexual obsession around me I am not obsessed with sex I am not obsessed with women I can live alone and be happy I have the self control to not masturbate I do not want to ever masturbate again I am free from the sickness of addiction to sex and masturbation I can live with control over my sexual desires Sexual desires are natural desires that can be kept under control Desires can be ignored Desires can be kept under control of the mind I do not live by my emotions I live by my knowledge I am in full control of my actions I base my actions on the decisions that I have made My decisions are in line with my life improving Masturbation or porn can only make my life worse Avoiding masturbation and porn can only make my life better I choose to live a better life I choose to live as my TRUE SELF
DAY 25 I am not obsessed with sex I am not obsessed with sex Sex is not important to me Sex is not important to me I do not want sex I do not want to have sex I am not obsessed with sex Masturbation is not the way to deal with stress Masturbation is not the way to relieve stress Stress is only increased once masturbation takes place I do not want to make my stress worse I deal with stress through writing, reading, prayer, and exercise I also deal with stress through my hobbies I enjoy playing my guitar more than masturbating I like to do things that bring me long lasting joy, not temporary pleasure I do not want to have a relationship with any woman I am not interested in a relationship right now Living alone is a positive path for a while I want to be single for a while I do not want to enter another relationship I do not want to find someone to have sex with I do not need sex to feel good I do not need sex to feel happy I can relax without sex or masturbation I am relaxed I am calm and relaxed I know that there are things that I cannot control in my life right now, but I am not anxious about those things. I only worry about the things that I have control over. I am ready to live my life on my own I am ready to enjoy my life I am ready to be able to be there for my kids I want to keep myself in control I keep my mind in control I keep my thoughts under control I keep my eyes trained on what is beneficial to me in the long term I do not look at women’s body parts I am not interested in looking at women’s butts I am not interested in looking at women’s breast I am not interested in looking at women’s crotches Looking at women can only cause discomfort Looking at women can only cause me to feel uncomfortable within myself I do not check out women I do not check out girls I do not check out women I do not look at women’s butts I do not look at women’s butts I do not concern myself with sex I do not care about having sex Sex is not important to me I don’t want sex I do not need sex I am happy to remain abstinent I am happy to be faithful to my moral standards My moral standards are based upon my beliefs, and that is more important to me than feeling pleasure for a moment I am happy that I can keep myself from doing what I know will only hurt me I do not do anything that I know will hurt my self esteem I do not want to masturbate Masturbation is a crime against one’s self because it only leads to pain in the end Momentary pleasure is not worth long term suffering I am proud to have quit masturbating for the rest of my life I no longer count the days since I last masturbated because it no longer matters I no longer want to declare a streak without masturbation because I will never masturbate again I am free from masturbation I am free from the power of masturbation I am not addicted to orgasms I do not need an orgasm I do not want to have an orgasm Orgasms weaken the soul of a man, which is OK when it is in the arms of a woman that he loves Orgasms without that are self destructive Self esteem is a valuable commodity, one that is worthy of protecting Protecting one’s self esteem requires avoiding doing anything that will destroy it like masturbation or porn I am not interested in looking at porn; I rather look at beautiful creations around me I am not interested in looking at women having sex, I would rather watch a beautiful sunset I am not interested in looking at naked women; I would rather listen to good music I find things to do that are good for my soul I do not do things that are destructive to my soul I guard my conscience to keep it clean and clear I do not practice anything that bothers my conscience I do not want to hurt my conscience I am happy to keep my conscience clean even when it means avoiding something that I FEEL like doing at the time My emotions do not rule over me My mind is my tool for control I use my mind to make my decisions in life, not my inner feelings I do not trust inner feelings, inner feelings come and go I know who I truly am I know who my True Self is My true self is a good man My true self is an honest and moral man I am my true self I am a moral man I am a honest man I am a clean man, mentally, spiritually, and physically I choose to do only what I decide to do according to my conscience I choose to never masturbate again, instead I find pleasure in accomplishments Accomplishments are a better way to deal with stress than masturbation I do not need to masturbate to relieve stress I do not need to masturbate to deal with sexual stress I do not need to masturbate to handle my sexual desires I handle my sexual desires like a man, with self control and power over myself I am powerful I am in control of myself I love being me I love being free from obsession with sex and orgasms I don’t ever want to go back to the darkness I will never go back to the darkness that is sexual obsession, pornography, masturbation, and other forms of sexual self abuse I hate porn I hate anything that resembles porn I hate when they show a strip club in a movie I hate strippers I hate the thought of looking at strippers I feel sorry for strippers, but also am disgusted by what they do Any woman who takes her clothes off to make money should be pitied, not desired I do not desire any woman I do not want any woman I am not interested in having sexual relations with anyone I am happy to be abstinent for a while Not worrying about sex opens the door to my being able to enjoy so many other things without distraction I am not worried about sex I am not concerned with sex I do not want to have sex right now I do not want to have sex unless I fall in love again and marry the woman, then and only then will I have sex I do not want to think about sex, I think about good things in my life instead I am not lonely I am alone but not lonely I enjoy my friends and do not need a lover I am content with being a single man for now I do not want to have sex I am not interested in sex Masturbation is awful Masturbation robs one of a healthy mental attitude towards sex Sex is not a means to an end Sex is the journey with a woman that you love and are committed enough to that you are married to her Sex is not a means of getting an orgasm Orgasms are meant to bring a couple closer to one another, orgasms without a loving marriage is destructive as it creates an attachment to someone or something that is not worthy of that attachment I have chosen to live my life as a man I have chosen to live my life according to my moral code I believe that sex is reserved for only married couples I believe that this arrangement is the only arrangement where sex is truly beneficial, all other scenarios have negative results from the orgasm I am not interested in an orgasm, so why would I even consider masturbation If I would not consider masturbation, then why would I ever consider looking at porn I do not want to masturbate I do not want to have an orgasm I am happier without having orgasms Orgasms are not helpful Orgasms only feel good for a moment and then are gone Orgasms from masturbation leave sadness Orgasms from masturbation destroy self esteem Orgasms from masturbation cause depression Masturbation is a weakness Masturbation is a cowardly and childish way of dealing with stress, boredom, or frustration I do not masturbate I do not want to masturbate I never masturbate, and never will I do not need sex I am happy without sex I am happy to live without sex for a while I am not interested in getting into a relationship I am not interested in finding a new wife right now I am looking forward to spending time getting to know myself better I am ok with where I am right now Living this life is amazing I love my life I don’t need anything to do with sex right now to be happy…
DAY 26 I could masturbate right now I know that I choose to not masturbate right now I choose to not masturbate at all Masturbation will not resolve anything; instead it would only make things worse I am proud of my stance with regards to masturbation I am finished with masturbation for good I do not want to masturbate I do not care about masturbation I am in control of myself I have self control I am able to deal with stress in positive ways I am able to manage my sexual desires I do not want to have sex I do not want to have sex right now I am fine with going without sex for now Sex is not important to me Sex is does not mean anything to me I am happy without sex I can be content without having sex I am a grown man and can control my actions when I have urges that I do not want to act on I can control my thoughts so that I do not think about sex I am in control of my emotions I am in control of my responses to sexual desires I do not want sex I do not want to masturbate I do not want to masturbate I choose to live without masturbation I choose to stay clear of porn or masturbation I am content to live my life without sex or masturbation I am content to live my life as a man of morals Masturbation is for chumps Masturbation is for losers Masturbation is not for me I do not want to masturbate I do not need to masturbate I do not like masturbation I do not rely on masturbation to deal with stress or sexual frustration I know what masturbation is really about Masturbation is about a moment of pleasure that goes away quickly Masturbation is about feeling down and depressed when it is over Masturbation is about self loathing when one feels like they can never stop Masturbation is self abuse, self misuse, and self destructive Masturbation is the enemy of self esteem I like feeling good about myself Masturbation makes one feel bad about themselves So I do not masturbate I like having a good self esteem Masturbation destroys the self esteem That is why I do not masturbate I like having control over my body Masturbation is a weakness of the mind I do not want that, so I do not masturbate I have grown really tired of even the thought of masturbation I do not have the desire to masturbate anymore I hate masturbation I hate everything about masturbation I hate the idea of masturbation I do not masturbate I do not want to masturbate I am satisfied with my decision to never masturbate again I am now single I am not in a position to have sex I do not need sex I do not want to think about sex I do not want to worry about sex I do not care about sex I am happy to practice abstinence I am satisfied with my life Living life happily has nothing to do with sex I do not need sex I do not want sex rigtht now I am free from sexual desires I am free from the illusion that I need sex Sex is not for me right now I am willing to go without sex for as long as is necessary… This is my life and I choose to live it according to my conscience This is my life and I choose to live it without masturbation in it This is my life and I choose to live it without pornography…. This is my life and I am happy.
Ok... so my counter reads 47 days today... that is not a significant number it is merely part of the next chapter of my life Within the next couple of months my 20 year marriage will be over as our divorce finalizes Within a year and a half I will be finishing school and making a career change In a year and a half both of my kids will be past 18 and moving on... So this is the changing of the last pages of a chapter in my life How do I want the rest to go? Do I want to end up fighting against PMO again? or am I set in my path to freedom from MO and PMO My new chapter has no place for MO or PMO DAY 27 This is my life, and I make the choices now I make the choices, not anyone else The decisions that I make are decisions that will benefit me I make decisions based upon clear understanding of the potential results I avoid any action that will have negative results if it is within my power Masturbation and Porn have clear negative effects on anyones life My life has no room for either of those I am beyond the ideas that surround masturbation and porn and even porn subs I am finished with the BS that is sexual obsession I am not obsessed with sex Sex is not a big deal to me any more I have come to realize that those who make sex a big deal in their lives make themselves weak Weak when it comes to relationships Weak when it comes to self respect I am not weak, I am powerful in my self control I have the power to avoid anything that is not good for me I make my decisions based upon knowledge not emotions Emotional decisions are weakness Emotional decisions are careless Woman and children can afford to be careless, men can not I am not careless when it comes to sex I am not careless when it comes to masturbation or porn I am a man... A beginning of my new chapter is a period of abstinence Abstinence holds the key to truly being me No sex is a key to self discovery I am ready to embark on this journey of self discovery Sometime in the future, when I reach the next level in my personal awareness I might consider seeking a new mate For now, being single and practicing abstinence is my path Abstinence for me means to stay clear of sexual stimulants Sexual stimulants are the basis of sexual obsession Sexual stimulants are images, videos, fantasies, and checking out women's bodies I keep clear of sexual stimulants Sexual stimulants are self defeating I keep my mind clear so that I can have a clean place to live inside of my head Sex is not bad in itself, it truly has its place in a beautiful way My life has no place for it right now I am not lonely I am not afraid of being alone I can be alone and not seek sexual stimulants I do not seek sexual stimulation I am not interested in sex I am not interested in masturbation I do not masturbate I never masturbate I never even consider masturbation There may be times that I get a physical urge, but I would never do that to myself Masturbation causes too many issues for it to be even considered Masturbation is a dangerous game to play It is in a lot of ways like Russian Roulette, you never know when you will masturbate and it trigger a relapse into porn or porn subs To masturbate means to bring it into your life as a need You cannot masturbate without developing a taste for it, which will lead to a need Masturbation is one of my enemies. Masturbation was part of my previous chapters of my life My new chapter has no place for masturbation I am finished with masturbation forever I feel good about letting go of masturbation I will never miss masturbation I do not miss masturbation I am glad that it is gone Moving forward in my life is my single goal, and I do not do things that can divert that So women Women Women Well... Women are women There are many things to appreciate about women Women are worth much more than the way that they look Women of substance are worth much more than women of looks So looking at women as objects misses the best part of who they might be Women are not sexual objects Women's bodies are not just sexual toys I have learned to never objectify women I do not objectify women I realize that I do not need sex That I do not want sex And that sex is not even an option right now So that frees me to get to enjoy women for what they are... people Sex is not a game Sex is not a challenge Sex is not a competition to see if you can score Sex has nothing to do with how valuable I am I am valuable without sex I am valuable without anyone wanting me I do not need the attention of women to make me feel good I feel good about myself I even feel better about myself when I don't worry about whether women are interested in me or not I do not want women to be interested in me right now I am on a path of abstinence so there is no place for it right now That leads me to the thought of looking at women... Women are everywhere I go The opportunities to stare at body parts are always going to present themselves That is why I have committed myself to not look at women's body parts I do not look at women's butts I do not want to look at their butts I do not want to look at their breast I do not want to look at their crotch I do not check out women at all I am happy being single and living my life according to my chosen path This is my life and I choose I am free from the social nonsense that overstates the value of sex I have had sex, I have enjoyed sex at the height of a loving relationship, I have experienced the love and euphoria that is making love I will always know what its potential is, but i do not need it to be happy I do not need sex to be happy I do not need sex to feel fulfilled I can be a single man and feel fulfilled I feel confident that there will be another chapter in my life where there is a woman that loves me for who I am and what I am really worth as a man For now I will stick to writing this chapter in my life I am ok with being single I am OK with living my life as a single man In order to live up to my commitments in life I avoid things that will stimulate my sexual desires I do not watch shows on Netflix that feature sex I don't watch shows that feature nudity or even promise some erotic or sexually stimulating content I am finished with those things I am a real man, not some pixel junkie I will be with a real woman when I am ready, not pretend to be with one I am in control of my eyes I keep my eyes in control I do not check out women I do not look at women to get a sexual charge I do not care what their butt looks like I dont care what their breast look like I am not interested in finding out what they look like I do not want to get turned on by a woman, what good could that possibly do? I am free from masturbation, so what would I do with an image of a woman's body in my mind I do not care to look at women's bodies I do not check out women I do not watch anything that features sex I do not want to watch shows that feature sex I have chosen to be free from sexual desires I am free from sexual desires I am free from the desire to masturbate I am free from any desire at all to look at pornography This is my life, these are my choices I get to make them And I get to reap the rewards for the way that I live...
DAY 28 (actually day 39 since I started this challenge; it's been challenging to do this every day) My life is mine My mind is mine I live how I choose I think how I choose I am not a product of my environment I am in control of who I am I have chosen to quit masturbation for good I choose to never masturbate again Masturbation is self destructive Masturbation causes a lack of self esteem Masturbation robs a man of his energy I do not want to masturbate I don’t even think about masturbation anymore when I go to bed I don’t think about masturbating when I am stressed out Never will I let that happen I love the way that I feel when I don’t masturbate I love the freedom that I feel I do not need to masturbate to deal with issues I do not want to masturbate to deal with loneliness or stress I choose to do things that are productive instead I choose to play guitar instead of masturbating I choose to paint instead of masturbating or looking at porn or porn subs I am in control of my actions I am in control of my life My self control keeps growing stronger My self control helps me to avoid things that I know are not good for me I stay away from harmful habits I stay away from porn I stay away from sexual stimulants I don’t want to get turned on sexually I don’t want to get turned on sexually I do not masturbate, and I do not want to have sex right now, so what would getting turned on do for me? Getting turned on sexually can only cause stress I do not want to be stressed out I do not want to get sexually turned on, so I do not check out women’s body parts. I do not look at women’s butts I do not look at women’s breast I do not look at women’s crotches I am not interested in checking out women I am not interested in checking out women I am not interested in getting turned on I don’t like getting turned on sexually Sex is not a part of my life right now Sex is not important to me I can live happily without sex or masturbation I can live happily without an orgasm Orgasms are only good for a very brief moment, but can cause a lot of issues afterwards Sex is a treasure that should not be shared without being in a loving marriage I am not married anymore, so sex is not a part of my life right now I am happy to live without sex I am happy to live without masturbation Avoiding masturbation is a powerful decision Avoiding masturbation gives me power and energy Avoiding masturbation increases my self confidence and assertiveness I am much more confident I am much more productive because I avoid masturbation I have come to hate the very idea of masturbation because I think of all that I would have to give up for just a little orgasm… it simply is not worth it So I am free from sexual obsession I have made the decision to avoid a path towards porn I do not want to ever look at porn again I absolutely hate porn Porn is disgusting and is humiliating to both the people in it and those looking at it Porn damages normal brain paths Porn destroys trust in a marriage I hate porn I despise porn and everything that leads to porn I have been free from porn for over 10 years and will be free from porn for over 20 years in another 10 years. I do not want to look at porn or anything that puts me in mind of porn, like skimpy dressed women, bikini models, cheerleaders, etc… I do not look at any porn subs I do not want to masturbate I do not masturbate I never masturbate I Never masturbate I never masturbate I do not want to masturbate, and that is it….
Post 29, instead of day 29 The last two months have been some very hard months for me… Many times I thought of just going ahead an MO to just get some relief from the stress and frustration. I haven’t though… I give credit to this challenge, not all credit, of course, but I know it made a difference. My thinking has changed in that my first thought is not the one that I accept; it’s the second thought, the one that I have been training that has come out as the winner. My instinct has become more in line with what I have been repeating in my self talk. It has now been 59 days since I last MO and I can truly say that the thought has decreased greatly, and even when it comes up it is not very strong. When it does come up I begin repeating the principle that I do not masturbate. I never masturbate. Masturbation is something that I do not do… and that seems to redirect my thinking away from getting to the point of no return, it keeps me focused on reality. So anyway here is my 29th post in the challenge: This is my life This is my course I get to choose my actions I get to choose my thoughts I am not a prisoner of self destructive thoughts I can control where my thinking goes I cannot control every thought that comes into my mind, but I always have control over what I do with the thoughts I control my thinking I manage my thoughts I am in control of my life Masturbation is a weakness Masturbation is a childish way of dealing with stress and tension I do not masturbate I do not rely on masturbation to deal with stress and tension I have other means of dealing with stress and frustration I deal with stress and frustration by journaling I deal with stress by going for a walk I deal with stress by going into prayer with God I am able to deal with stress and frustration in many different ways, and never even consider masturbation as a possible solution I know masturbation I know what it is about I know what masturbation offers, both the good and the bad Masturbation offers a moment of good feelings Masturbation offers a short period of relief from emotional turmoil Masturbation then brings about negative feelings Masturbation then brings on a sense of hopelessness Masturbation then becomes a crutch and then becomes what feels like a need Frustration follows masturbation Masturbation may help with frustration for a couple of days, but when the frustration returns it is stronger than before masturbating These are reasons why I choose to never masturbate again I love myself and do not do anything that will harm myself Masturbation is self abuse I do not abuse myself I do not masturbate I do not want to masturbate I hate even the thought of masturbation I am free from even the idea of masturbation I consider masturbation to be disgusting Masturbation is a very childish act I am not a child I do not need a crutch to deal with my situation I understand the need for tension in my life All growth takes place outside of the comfort zone I do not want to use masturbation to avoid discomfort Discomfort makes me take action Discomfort is not my enemy Masturbation is my enemy I do not want to try to alleviate discomfort at the price of my self respect I respect myself too much to give up my self esteem for a moment of pleasure My life is about more than just a moment, my life is about every day and how I live each day I live my life in accord with my moral compass I have accepted the moral standards from my spiritual guide, the Bible I am ready to live in a way that makes me proud of myself I am proud of who I am I am proud that I have left all forms of pornography I am proud that I no longer masturbate I am proud that I will never masturbate again I do not miss masturbation I do not miss masturbating I do not miss the feeling of masturbation I do not miss the overwhelming feeling of loss that follows masturbation I do not miss the strong disappointment that follows masturbation I have chosen to live my life without all of those feelings I have chosen to live my life without ever masturbating again What about women? Women are like me Women are people with brains, feelings, emotions, dreams, goals, etc… Women are not sex Women are not meant only for sex Sex is not a womans only purpose Sex is not why woman exist Women are worthy of respect I respect the rights of women to be more than sexual objects I do not objectify women I do not objectify women by staring at their body parts I do not look at their butts I do not look at their breasts I do not look at their crotches Instead I look at them as living souls They are so much more than their bodies Woman deserve to be treated with respect I am not interested in checking out women I am not interested in checking out women I do not want to check out women Checking out women is a thing of the past for me When an attractive woman walks past me, I simply ignore her I do not give attention to a woman because of her looks I do not give attention to any woman because of her looks We are all so much more than the way that we look I do not care about whether women check me out I do not need women to check me out to feel good about myself I feel good about who I am on the inside I care about being myself I do not need to impress women I don’t care about impressing women Impressing women and girls is not of any interest to me I do not want to impress women or girls I am free from concern about being attractive I am confident and that is more important than looks anyway I am self confident because I know that I don’t need any woman to feel good about myself I have chosen to live a period of abstinence while I heal from a failed marriage I have chosen to give myself time to grow without concern with relationships I do not even consider sex with anyone that I am not married to I will not have sex again until I marry again Sex is not that big of a deal Sex is not a reason to remarry I want to live without sex for a while I want to feel free from the ‘need’ for sex I do not need sex to be happy I do not need sex to be content with my life I can be happy without sex I probably am more happy because I am not having sex Sex is not important to me Sex is not important to me I can live happily without sex I am doing fine without sex Sex is not what they make it seem to be in movies and tv shows Sex is not just something that you do when you start dating Sex is not just something fun to do Sex is an important emotional experience that should only be shared in a fully committed marriage I am ready to live without sex for as long as it takes I am not looking to get into another relationship I am worried about finding someone any time soon Being newly divorced does not mean that I should find someone to have sex with I have not changed My moral standards have not changed I live by my faith I choose my course in life My course in life is one of a clean conscience, that means more to me than almost anything… So I am free from the practices of looking at porn or masturbating I am free from the desire to masturbate or look at porn My life is the life that I choose I make my choices, and I do not have to explain them to anyone anymore…
