I've been free for a couple of weeks almost now and honestly it's been great. Way more free time and I actually spent my time doing productive things (mostly). Even made quite a few internet friends. Not to mention I had much more clarity. But like as of 10 minutes ago, the urges are creeping up slowly. Don't have anyone to talk to either so I'm here :/ If anyone's seeing this I just wanna talk for a while. That's all. Also, if I'm not too busy, I might post updates in this thread as the days go on.
Youre doing great! You see even I had great streaks in the past. I left my job last month, and Ive been struggling since. I have promised myself that relapsing isn't an option. Never. The addiction has harmed me for a looong time. I wont allow it to get hold of me anymore. ONWARD!
Thanks Jiten! See, the thing is sometimes I feel like that, motivated even to quit this. But lately, I guess the fact that I haven't been studying has made me more sad and there's just this spiral of depression that results in me wanting to go back to this habit. I hope I can be more active on here for a while, at least until I am confident I can last without having to come back to this site. I know I probably sound whiny and I apologize for that, but posting here is the only thing keeping me from not doing it right now. Also, if anyone has any ideas as to what i can do when I feel these urges creeping up, I'd really appreciate it. 'Cause in the moment I just get lost sometimes and a few minutes later I wake up from this trance after I'm done, feeling awful and there's nothing I can do about it. Please feel free to share your thoughts on this thread, no matter what they are
Okay so I still haven't PMO'd yet which is a good thing. But these urges are seriously starting to get to me. I have a couple of the hardest exams tomorrow for which I really need to be studying for. But these urges are making it difficult to sit down and concentrate, which in turn makes me feel bad and want to do it even more ( Nevertheless, I'm holding on. Just wish I could actually study and not despair. Advice is always appreciated!
14 days and still going! This is really amazing for me. I'm so glad and thankful to have made it to TWO WHOLE WEEKS! Might not sound impressive to some of you but this is huge for me. I'm starting to study more too and have way more time on my hands. I'm thinking of starting a stricter exercise plan maybe (I have one right now, but I'm following it pretty loosely) as well. Stay strong peeps!
Good to hear you're doing well. I am as well. Perhaps you should leave the house when urges happen. Even if you just leave with no plans in your head.
as @nopenotdoinit! said leave the house, don't think about it. Get up take whatever you need and get out of your house. A few days ago i drank alcohol and half and hour later i was watching porn. i did it unconsciously. i got up, and left my house as fast as i could without thinking. I panicked and it saved me. you must have an emergency plan for this situations that you can apply at any time. in my case i take everything i need and i leave my house to have a coffee at a gas station near my house that is open 24/7. if you cant leave, and you are edging or hard, take anything where you can pour cold water and add some ice and put your genitals in there . i don't know if its healthy but it really worked for me a few times. Or you can always have a cold shower.
That actually sounds like a good idea. Unfortunately, I have to study right now ('cause exams) so I spend most of my time cooped up in my room. But I think I'll start maybe taking short walks every now and then. Thanks!
I'm glad to hear you didn't relapse. But I don't think it is gonna be possible to go outside every time I feel the urge (although I will try). Maybe start by going out of my room at least. Also, cold showers sound like a good idea after all I've heard about them; I think I might take it up soon.
No problem man. And yea, I mean just a short walk or something. The outing need not take more that 10 or 20 minutes. It should be just enough time to get yourself out of that horny/non mindfulness mode. When you're in that horny/unfocused state of mind, you are not getting anything done study wise anyway, so don't fool yourself there.
Okay so here's an update: I had my exam today, went alright I guess. PMO hadn't really crossed my mind much until like 5 minutes ago when I (almost) searched for videos. But I came back here so I guess that's a good sign. I have like a week break before the next exam so this part might be a little tough, but I have to keep telling myself I can make it. And @nopenotdoinit! , I really appreciate your advice. I'm gonna do it starting now. Peace out for now!
Hey man keep going strong! I'm only day 12 here and the lack of energy and loneliness is killing me, I spend lots of time each day on this site and just reading on yourbrainonporn.com to keep busy. I decided to get up and move a bit more today thanks to a video I saw on youtube so it's a step, if you ever need help we'll be here to support ya!
Stay strong, man! We can do it... Yes, urge comes mostly when we are weak for some reason, frustrated or under stress... But we can win it... The counter helped me really a lot: there are some challenges going on and we have to win the contest prize: our freedom
@Kman20 and @Janek85 , thanks for the support guys. You have no idea how much power, even a single encouraging word has, to make me feel better and more determined to continue on this path. But anyway, here's the update: Still going strong and haven't had any serious urges since the last time I posted here. However, I'm beginning to feel like today might not go so well. I don't really want to do it, but I'm home alone and like 95% of the time when I'm home alone it happens. And to top it off, it's like a thousand degrees outside (okay 40+, but that's still too hot), so I can't really take a walk (and no cold showers either cause the water's hot too) My brain keeps telling me just one time won't hurt, even though I know exactly how bad it hurts. For now, I'm able to suppress this feeling but I'm not so sure I can once I actually start to want to do it. Aaaaaahhh! This sucks.
I KNOW, RIGHT. I can't be alone, I try to go outside. but right now it's impossible for me, it's 5:18 am so i just gotta burn time here. I think I'll watch an episode of the series I'm currently watching. Gonna beat the urge, you can too.
Guys, it is good you are facing the urges writing in the forum instead of actually searching for some videos... this is the good approach... we can quit forever, yeah!
Welp, back at day 1 again. I feel like I just kind of gave up more than the urge being too much - 'cause I feel like I could've controlled it if I put my mind to it. But that's besides the point. What I've got to focus on now is improving myself from here on out. No more relapsing for me. I felt like absolute garbage when I was done but here's to making ourselves better! Cheers!
Guys, 31 days without FAP or PMO!!! Still I can't believe my own eyes!! And this was mostly thanks to all of you! Next challenge: 90 days no reset (avoiding also any kind of Porn substitute). Yes, we can!!