35 and Older Accountability Group

Day 223

Hello all my friends!

Yesterday, after urinating, a slippery substance came out (which I still don't understand what it is if I haven't had an orgasm for 7 days) and while cleaning off that substance, I announced with my hand for about 10 seconds and realized that I shouldn't continue anymore and stopped immediately, because then I would have reached an orgasm.

I had the willpower to stop because I wanted to remain pure in front of my wife, because my wife believes that I am free from it and I believe that I am. Because then I would have to confess to her and I would upset her a lot and I would feel even more devastated.

Next time I have to be more careful because it's one moment and it's so easy to give up, but I don't want to give up, I want to stay strong because I made a promise to God and my wife that I won't do it again.

What do you think dear friends, should I need reset my counter if I did it for 10 seconds?

May you all have a beautiful and joyful Sunday without temptations!

 

Checking in and going strong

 

No se si vale mi repuesta porque soy mujer jeje.
Pero creo q no debes reiniciar porque has parado a tiempo.

 

@Hope23 I would talk to your Dr about the discharge thing, I am sure it is nothing but it good to make sure everything is ok.

Regards the counter. I don't think you need to reset. Just learn from it and move on and be thankful that you stopped after 10 seconds.

 

I am on day 146 hardmode no sex no PMO
Deep in the flatline: depression, mental fog, anxiety

I had my day off today. Did a few things and ran a few errands. Starting a six day work week tomorrow (Friday being my only day off)

 

Thank you for your answer and came here to read my message

Thank you very much for your message and support!

Thank you for your answers and support and congratulations!
Thanks as always for your valuable advice.

Yes my dear friends, I will move forward and thankful to God, that I stopped in time and continue to move forward humbly.
And about to check doctor, I don't know if I will go to visit, because I have no pain and I think need time when my body adapts to my new life.

Thank you, now I am calm about the counter and will continue the journey I started.
May God bless us all and give us the strength to move on and never give up.

 

Checking in. Day 3. I think I messed up my dopamine system last week. I have no desire to do absolutely anything and everything seems like a massive problem. I wonder how long this state will last.

 

Checking in at the start of the working week - stay strong everyone.

 

Checking in, reset today.

 

So, in summary, the nofap flatline is a challenging but necessary phase as your brain rewires itself to gain sensitivity to normal pleasure again. Pushing through is vital to experience the full benefits of abstaining from porn and masturbation long-term. Note: These Symptoms are temporary.

 

I am on day 147, hardmode no sex, no PMO
No fantasy, no euphoric recall
I can describe my state of mind as rough or jagged. I am contemplating going through a course of amanita muscaria. A couple of people suggested starting the meds again but I had such a bad experience with the meds last year that don't want to repeat.
Flatline symptoms are real..facing reality without sex and porn as a crutch is a big adjustment at 40 year old.

 

Checking in - windy outside today

 

Checking in. Feeling in a good place still, keeping life fairly simple and just doing what works for me.

 

I am on day 148, no sex, no PMO
No fantasy, no euphoric recall

No flatline symptoms today

I've been going on walks daily, trying to eat better, taking a bunch of supplements and vitamins, and also get consistent sleep. It seems that consistent sleep is key to maintaining a leveled recovery

 

Doing well still. One thing that has helped me is meditation. The idea that has helped the most is the recognition of my thoughts. Once I notice my thoughts, I'm no longer inside them and then I can choose how to move forward. I feel I am less on auto-pilot and my brain gets hijacked a little less. And when it does, I am more likely to notice it, which is a big deal because then I can consciously make a choice. I have a long way to go but feeling good. Keep up the work.

 

2 days now

 

Checking in - tired this morning, fell asleep a lot earlier last night and slept pretty much all night. It’s been a long week already.