DAY 3 14 day meditation streak. When we appreciate that all emotions are transient it becomes easier to observe them without bias.
Busy and stressful day today. Jotted down some material for my group presentation for school. It's about how A.I. is impacting businesses. Since I do part time work for my sister who is a CPA, the industry I chose to base my part of the group presentation is, accounting. Meanwhile, I see my nephews playing on the VR that I gave to them several months ago when I first joined NoFap. As you can already imagine what I used that VR for lol. But I hear my nephew interacting with the other kids in the online VR game, talking out loud because there's a mic in the VR and the other players can hear him. I also hear the voices of all the other kids in the VR game talking out loud just like my nephew is. It's kinda fascinating to me how gaming has changed or is changing and that VR is perhaps becoming more popular. Happy I gave them that VR because they LOVE it and play on it every day. Their parents had to set a timer for their playing sessions so they don't get too hooked to it. Understandable. Almost wish I had a timer for my playing sessions back when I was a kid! lol. I also got some info on potentially joining the police academy. I'd have to do the agility test and swim test first though which I think isn't too hard. Going for a run now. I have a great urge to go running. I think my body and spirit wants to level up my running frequency per week. I've been enjoying it lately (at least before and after the run, not really during lol)
10 days completed (Red Pill) 24 hours without P: +1 (10) 24 hours without M: +1 (10) 24 hours without social media: +1 (6) Gym: - (2) Reading Ea-Pe: 54%
So here's the dealio. I need to reset my other counter (M), as I ended up "interacting" with myself yesterday. However. I've decided to not reset my whole counter (P), as I didn't watch or do anything related to porn whatsoever. My intention of this journey here on Nofap is escaping from the addiction of porn itself, not semen retention, since I'm also working towards a closer and healthier sexual relationship with my wife (I have already been sexual active since november 4th). I didn't watch porn, and don't have any intention doing so. I relate porn as something pathetic, sick, unworthy and devastating, and haven't felt any urges or craving towards it, not a single molecule of my body - during my 11 days, yesterday or today. I decided to leave the addiction (of watching, interacting or have anything to do with porn in my life) behind 11 days ago, and I'm never going back. Ever. Just so everyone knows. Peace out. 24 hours without P: +1 (Streak: 11) 24 hours without M: - (Streak: 0) 24 hours without Social media: - (Total: 6) Gym: - (Total: 2) Reading Ea-Pea: 54%
Day 4 Will reach day 5 in a couple of hours. And on day 16 of my meditation streak. Funny how my meditation streak goes by so fast but a day of nofap feels much longer. Probably because conquering a meditation session a day is a much shorter length than conquering a full 24 hours every day without PMO. Props to our discipline! To be honest though, I feel like my urges are very manageable these days mainly because of preparation to some social tasks that I have pending for school i.e. group presentations and a woman I've been talking to, Holiday family time coming up and a potential career goal. If it wasn't for these things on my plate and people I have to interact with, I likely would be indulging in porn a lot more frequently (Been taking N-Acetyl Cysteine lately too which I'm pretty sure also helps me with urges). For some reason, I put more mind into my social anxiety and tend to manage my social anxiety more poorly when I am indulging in PMO. So, I'll rather be disciplined and steer clear from PMO at least for now because there's plenty of social interacting I have to do for the remainder of this month.
Mr. Anderson: 3/6 Welcome back @T0mCrus4der! Loving the numbers we have within our ranks at the moment, all committed to fighting the Porn Matrix. The Agents will definitely be trying to demotivate us, and attack us when we least expect it.
Day 12 24 hours without P: +1 (Streak: 12) 24 hours without M: +1 (Streak: 2) 24 hours without Social media: - (Total: 6) Gym: - (Total: 2) Reading Ea-Pea: 54%
