Day 36. I am tempted to watch pornographies and masturbate. It is a bad. Not sure what to do... Craving creates this huge emptiness inside and there is an illusion that only pmo can fill it. And it makes me feel that if I don't pmo, I won't be happy ever again. I doubt it's correct, but, still, it s*cks to feel like this. I don't know... I should probably go for a walk. Battles won against pmo addiction: 126. Spoiler: Journey stuffs 36 days hardmode. Denim jacket reward for 180 days. No coffee.
Day 0! When I was doing my school work in late night,There were lot of negative thoughts in my head. I couldn't ressit that and Unfortunately I watch some p*** videos. Anyway I'm going to visit my grandma tommorow and I will stay there for a week and I can get a liitle rest from my work. So I will be back after a week with new energy brothers!
Day 22 in the books. I’m feeling a lot better today - still a bit off but I think I’ll be 100% by Monday. Have a good weekend folks. Into the Misty Mountains!
I'm ashamed to confess once again that I relapsed. And this time it was surely a relapse. I watched porn and jerked off to it. I find it really dificult to get some momentum in my streaks. If I don't have at least some days in my counter I have the mindset of "whatever, I'm not losing much anyway" and then I proceed to the act. I need some help with motivation, cuz I'm feeling like I'll relapse again. Also, how to keep up motivated once the streak is going fine?
Day 0 relapsed yesterday at nigth, but was a good strike at least The relapse was in some way quick so it's not the end of the world Worked out but I didn't had the time to take a shower Keep strong my brothers
Last night after midnight for the first time, I was triggered, started fishing on you tube and e sites, got out of bed, went into bathroom to start ritual, but somehow just stopped and saw I do not want this. And for the first time I said to myself why not just walk away from it and go to back to bed to sleep and that is what I did. So now I'm exhausted as I fished until late (2am) but I didn't pmo. I'd be grateful of the accountability from this quest as I am in the exhausted part of the faster scale, in survival mode, but I am committing here to cut off streaming and social media from 21:30 for a week at least, starting today and of course committing to no pmoe. Streaming late is triggering me as is an impossible attraction to a married woman in work which I have to walk away from clearly
1 day Some urges yesterday but managed focusing in my work Today I worked out and took a cold shower Keep strong my brothers
Day 37. Seems that I am stretching the day for no reason. Let's just go to sleep. Battles won against pmo addiction: 129. Spoiler: Journey stuffs 37 days hardmode. Denim jacket reward for 180 days. No coffee.
