I'm posting on Day 1 of a new journey for me. I really really want to be fit and healthy again. I know that m is one of the factors that is slowing me down by exhausting my energy in the pursuit of something temporary. I also spend way too much time looking at things that are not porn but not beneficial either. I really need to start pushing my focus on more worthwhile endeavors. I signed up for a gym membership at planet fitness and am going to start eating better and have a goal I want to reach. I plan on using this website again as a source of motivation and tracking my progress and hope to here from others who can tag along on this journey of self improvement both physically, mentally, sexually and spiritually.
Today I went to the gym and took a class on how to do the 30 minute pf circuit...just finished putting washed clothes in the dryer and filling up the dishwasher...next step for the day is vacuuming and cold shower.
To the person who so happens to stumble upon this, I'm sorry but I'm about to go on a tangent but for a purpose. I just woke up from a dream and had thoughts randomly come out of nowhere having to do with some aspect of the dream. It's crazy but it's like this.... My dream was about going to the bank to make a withdrawal from the ATM. After making my withdrawal, I noticed the Machine had an additional bill sticking out. Upon noticing such bill, I decided to pull it out only to expose another bill and another. Uh oh. At first, my greed had made me pull bills out but now my honesty was forcing me to tell the bank personnel about the problem. I do so because that's the right thing to do. After doing the honest thing, I reach in my pocket to look for the money I had withdrawn only to find I can't find it. Uh oh again I frantically retrace my steps and spot the money on the floor not far. (It had fallen out of my pocket) I run for my money as the light breeze starts to blow it away. To my surprise, I'm able to recover my blown money plus more that was blowing in the wind but at a price I say that because by doing so I caught the attention of an angry man in a pickup truck. "What are you doing? Why are you following me?" "I'm sorry." I chuckle. "I guess I have a queer way of having fun." The pickup driver angrily ask me leave him alone and I answer that I had had and still have that intention. I walk away as my dream ends and I wake up. I start thinking about angry people I've met and where. My right off the bat one was in Chicago because of PoGoFest coming up. My friend, Bret and I had slept in a car in some random parking spot near Lincoln Park. As I said from the beginning...I'm sorry you just had to read all that information that had no point to it but to empty my brain of the thoughts I was having...the only real worthwhile thing that might come out of this posted comment is this: the entire time you were reading this, were you ever thinking about PMO? My guess is not. I wish you the best on your journey of reading the posts on this website...you might just stop thinking about what causes you to be weak.
Day 22 of avoiding M...I am struggling...I want to so bad...I find myself in the moment when I am in need of refocusing my thoughts and realigning myself with my goals...M won't help me achieve my goals...
