The Lord of the Rings Challenge

30 days
Medium urges yesterday, starting to feel strong cravings, but good habits help to avoid relapsing
Today I worked out and took a cold shower
Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 2 since my reboot started yesterday. The long road to Mordor lies ahead!

 

Day 8

 

Day 11

 

Day 14!

 

Day 148

 

Day 3 brothers. Sting begins to glow blue here and there through the day, but we withstand the urge.

 

Almost there!! Stay strong man!

 

Had a relapse yesterday. The Nazgul were everywhere and I ran back to the Shire. Back to Day 0.

 

Day 9

 

Nothing to be ashamed of man. We’ve all been there. We’re all here beside you in your fight. Together we will bring freedom to Middle-Earth!

 

dAy 005

 

Day 4, trod on!

 

Day 149

 

Day 12

 

Day 0

Back in the saddle...

I confess I've been relapsing a lot lately and not even really trying to kick the pmo habit, but today I found new motivation. I'll admit I saw some material I wasn't very comfortable with and felt a lot of shame. I've been in this headspace of feeling like I have to "wait for the right time" to begin this new streak, but that just prolongs the addictive cycle and is really just an excuse to keep using. Plus it always feels like just going backwards and against my present identity as a Fapstronaut when I'm using, yet in a few days I'll probably feel like I really need it.

On the plus side I started a new and pretty in-depth hypnosis program today. I think this information will be really helpful to me and give me something to focus on for awhile. Other than nofap my sole focus for now will be on clearing out what remains of my toxic programing.

 

Day 15!

 

Day 10. I can very well spot in my mind and body the consequences of falling. Dopamine urges, as little waves attack me, but I know it's temporary. The first days are the worst. It's a matter of time till I'm "porn free" or "bad, dark thoughts free" again.

Good news is God keeps talking to me, showing me where I have to go, day by day.
Also today is my 104th day of "reading the Bible in 365 days" almost 1/3 of the road!

 

Good to see you still here fighting. Do you mean that your urges for dopamine in general go up, like for example cravings for say caffeine after relapsing? I think I will skip my morning tea today as I've noted some level of link between caffeine and PMO, as have many others here.

"I know it's temporary. The first days are the worst. It's a matter of time till I'm "porn free" or "bad, dark thoughts free" again."

I'll try to keep this quote in mind today. It's like your certain you'll get there again! I'll try to cultivate a similar confidence. When I had it is when I did best.

 

Day 4 brothers