22 getting back on track

Day1 morning.

Slept really bad and woke up after 5 hours of sleep. I am going to make changes in my life, NOW.

Even though I am exhausted, I will start working on my thesis now. I will establish a normal sleep cycle going to bed at 11:30 and sleeping until 8 or 8:30.

I will charge my phone outside my room now.

I will cut down on smoking as it is really to much right now.

 

Evening update:
Not going to bed yet, just a reminder of what journey I am on

 

Just had an amazing chat with an accountability partner I met about 2 years ago! It was great I know what do know. He has been successful with going no P only. He’s on 115 days. Had several long streaks of no P before that. We had contact about a year ago and that’s when he was already changing his strategy from no PMO to no P. I back then said I will do no PMO. Where am I today compared to him? He is fucking successful with his strategy, and I of course failed getting a good streak of no PMO going in the last year, BECAUSE ITS FUCKING HARD.

He says he gets 80% of the benefits for 20% of the price. And I think he is fucking true.

I am hella motivated now! Nothing can stop me I will do no P and my first goal is to got to 90 days no P. I will reset my day counter now.

 

Day 2
Morning check in. I am doing no P.

 

Day 3:
Everything is going good. Doing no P. mit feels way easier. I am actually on no PMO since 3 days, but the fact that I know I could jack off (without porn) makes it so much more comfortable. So I will basically jack off some day but not because I want to watch porn, rather rather to release pressure. It feels a lot healthier than restricting myself 100%.

looking forward to this journey I think I can really make it to 90 days and establish it as a lifestyle.

 

Jacked off the first time 10 minutes ago.

 

Careful with the easy mode, it can be harder for some people and you are still firing those pathways of lust.

Stay strong Bulletin and best wishes with those plans!

Praying for you.

 

I need to admit, I have failed today. I felt quite good and I was outside and thought maybe I can find someone for a hookup. Well after 2 hours of trying to find someone it ended with me jacking off at home to a sex story. Twice. No porn. Some nude images from dating platforms. I messed up.

but je not let this pull me down. I have learned my lesson and I know why I failed. I need to avoid triggers like dating apps for at least a while to embrace my new lifestyle.
I will start a New journey from now on.

 

Wednesday the 3rd of may is day 1.
i messed up again. i now deleted my dating apps except tinder.
i will do no PMO for 2 weeks. thenm i will see if i might switch to no P only. I need to reboot mysefl, i dont want to further engage in weird porn.
i will stop biting my nails.
i ordered some supplements and i think they will really help me. i take one for wrist pain and i think it already got better so i will start going to the gym again. Really looking forward to getting i a really good shap eagain.

 

Don't worry, keep fighting Bulletin!

https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/porn-addiction-is-being-severely-underestimated.326929/

This post is really good, you should read it man.

 

Day 1.

 

Keep fighting Bulletin! Good to hear from you again.

 

Day 3 going good! I have a good feeling about this one! I have a strategy and a goal I will make it, I know I can.

 

Thanks man, how are you doing?

 

Great to hear!

Doing splendid! Doing a lot better NoFap-wise as well! Got out of my rut.