Day 75 and relapsed I had a boredom and relapsed with M imagining my fantasy with a girl whom I met long time ago. I wouldn't relapse again, and will start back strong here again.
There is no point in counting days! Previously I made it to 124 days and fell into the trap again. What exactly is the point of counting days when most of us fall back into the trap again at some point? Do you expect the days to fix your problem? It's never going to happen mate. There is only one efficient way to stop and that's the easy*p*e*a*s*y method. You need to get to the root of the problem. The only reason you have urges is because of your illusion that porn has value to you. It gives you nothing but suffering. When you're counting days, the only thing that you do is to "fight" the urges, which then leads to longing for porn and then you're back on square one before you know it. There's no need to "fight" the urges. That's what causes you to relapse. The only reason that you feel urges to watch porn is because your mind has been hacked BY porn to have those feelings or impulses. Porn is s trap for the mind. When you think you're horny you're actually feeling stress the same way a drug addict feel stressed and deprived. Porn is what causes this feeling, this "need" to watch it, or to MO. It's an endless cycle unless you break out of it. It's all an illusion. You don't need porn.
Failed and back to zero! I will come back to this thread once I complete the 3-day, 7-day, 14-day and 30-day challenges.
It's 13 days porn free but I did m a few times but not until ejaculation. I reset my counter out of respect for myself and others.
I'm fucking the girlfriend a lot these days, though we are spending more time together. The difference now is, she knows about this, i have support and we anticipate the harder times ahead. I'm not hiding anymore...that's the biggest difference. I don't feel ashamed...I feel supported for the first time in my life.