Day 1. Feeling good, the urges were minimal but I took a cold shower anyway. Something tells me I ought to make that a regular habit. Hoo hah!
Day 27 Urges are stronger lately, I don't know if it's stress or if the urges stress me and therefore create this cycle? Yesterday I made the unhealthy decision to silence the urges with junk food, not the best solution. I don't want to fall back to food when I'm unhappy. I'm also haunted by my dreams. I dream of relapse all the time and other triggering things. I'm soo close to day 30 I DON'T WANT TO GIVE UP!!
Day 0 I failed..I was feeling nothing positive for the last week.First i was sick then when i got better everything felt...shitty.I wanted to feel something positive.I was fully awere that it will be fake.But what i didnt know was that even it wont bring me satisfaction.During the act for the first time it felt...boring.Maybe because of the guit?But the guilt only came after the previous times...I feel confused,lost and ashamed.I will be starting the challange again.But i NEED to understand my emotions better.This emptyness must mean something.... Best of luck
I think it might just be the withdrawal. I have felt the same thing before, oround week 3. But I haven't gotten over it so I don't know how long it takes for it to go away.
Day 7. St. Teresa of Avila, pray for us. Stay strong. These moments will be hard, but you can do a lot of things to fight them back. First, stop letting appear in your mind these images, memories or feelings. Later you can pray, meditate, do exercise, come to NoFap.com and ask for help and use the panic button... We believe in you, you can achieve one month without PMO and more!
Do what your instincts tell you, but be ready to stand up to pay the consequences too. You could end up living in the streets because of your decision, but that situation itself is an exciting one. If if were you, I'd have blindly did what you did, only because I am Brave and i can handle the after consequences if any. But are you?
Day 70! From a dwarf to a warrior! Since the race of men are more susceptible to the power of the ring I hope that doesn't mean anything (haha). I think I passed a test last night when the PMO urges grabbed me harder compared to the past couple of months (yeah, despite my age I could get very into the world of LOTR). I wish you all the best!
@Taran7 Relapse is not failure. To all my brothers, Feeling depression, having low energy, being unmotivated is not failure, that is being human. Feeling ashamed and guilty is intelligence telling you to what you did does not lead you to a path toward righteousness. When you feel these negative emotions you know that something has to change, you know it. The next best thing to do is to ACT. We only fail when we stay down and when we don't recognize the intelligence that operates within us. So stand back up, even with the weight of the ring, and keeping marching forward!