I'm on day 134 of hardmode so far. I feel so focused and in control right now. All the colors, sounds, smells, and emotions of the world are so vivid and beautiful. It feels like I am waking up from some deep, cloudy dream. With every new day, I can feel more and more light flooding my whole being. Praying and meditation brings about pure bliss like I've never experienced before. Better than any drug and, yes, better than any sex I've had or taken. I'm not having as many sexual urges any more, which is actually really exciting and brings more bliss to my heart! My whole perception is slowly changing from "I want this, I need that" to "What does the world need to be a better place for everyone?" I am beginning to see everyone as a child of humanity. It doesn't matter how dark or evil their vibe is, they still are human, which is beautiful. Even people who have are doing wrong, they are just lost souls that are learning on their path. There is a long way to go, as I plan to continue hardmode for the full 5 years, and after that, hopefully I can make the choice of full Brahmacharya or to move back into a life with a partner. Just thought I would share my progress this week for fun! Light bless you all! Keep strong and disciplined on your path, no matter what your goal is. Any one of you guys here can achieve your goal and much more, as long as you are passionate enough to want it!
I'm happy for you bro! My only hope for you is that you will continue walking/running along this path and be very loyal to it. Stay vigilant and enjoy the rest!
Very inspiring. I hope we may all beginning to think not "what do I want" but what does the world want, and use our skills and energies to fulfill that want.
Respect man! you are rocking in your life, just keep it going and never loose the sight of your dream!
the state you are describing is called love. Please continue acting like this. The world needs more love.
OP, your description of your new state of consciousness is gorgeous. It's truly beautiful and humbling to see someone get to the level you're describing. I'm bookmarking this page to remind me of what's on the other side of this journey! I wish you the best
It is great that you can say meditation is better than sex. That is a very good sign of progress I think. I can't say meditation is better than sex yet but I can say it is better than masturbation.
Awesome story, I'm on day 95 and withdrawal symptoms are killing me, brain fog , no motivation no libido and depressed for no reason, also with being depressed during this flatline/withdrawal phase is making me gain weight and acne cuz I'm so stressed! I know it'll get better tho
Just reading this post again and again I am over joyed. You have found the holy grail. It seems that you inner channels are in alignment. May you do five years in ease and contentment. May people feel the love you wish to communicate to them.
This has helped me very much. I'm very happy for you! Thank you and best of luck to you on your beautiful journey.