Trying to rewire brain, GF is holding on by a thread.

There's plenty of support and information here. If you're not aware of Certified Sexual Addiction Therapist (CSAT) those are the best therapist to meet with and they tend to have good knowledge about porn addiction.

A book my therapist has me reading called Treating Pornography Addiction by Kevin B Skinner walks through a lot of techniques and information about the addiction. I say check the book out as a good resource.

Also no matter what it comes down to us being proactive and taking steps to limit our exposure and maximize positive actions as a replacement. You can overcome this and I think it's a great idea to journal in a reboot log. I find it helps me face my thoughts and actions of the day.

 

The urges will not stop but you need to fight them. Your brain will try to trick you in order to give in. "It's okay just a picture then I'll stop" or "Okay just one video and then no more" and after you relapse you ask yourself why.

If you know any good therapist then go and listen to him. But remember he cannot help you if you do not help yourself. Whatever advise he gives you is in vain if you do whatever you please.

You are in a relationship and your girlfriend is supportive about it but how long can she take? How long can you take? Time to stop shooting yourself in the foot and move forward

 

A good resource to check out is an app in the play store called reboot it might be on I phone too. And also affair recovery with Rick Reynolds. I suggest these alot because they really did help me. Use these resources as well as a good properly trained therapist. Do it for you and then you gf can reap the benefits along with you. Porn/infidelity are rough waters to navigate and you definitely need help. I struggle with shame too. The trick is to not wallow and start do productive activities to distract yourself

 

maybe you are missing out on some key reality checks to strengthen your motivation. if you are experienced with focused meditation, try to zoom out from your immediate thoughts and see your life as a whole, and your corner of the universe. the people in your life are like energy gateways and relationships are a constant in and out flow of energy. are you receiving love and support from some key individuals? do you recognize that you have that energy to receive and be grateful for? are you providing others with a flow of love and support? etc.

I find that when I do this I become overwhelmed with gratitude for some people and things in my life that I take for granted and it motivates me to two things I might not necessarily feel up to doing which would be an obvious choice with a gateful attitude.