Cheking in, day 111. I still don't fully understand how I could get here. Very happy for this achievement but I don't think I have the "beast" dominated ... I'm still attentive and alert, walking one step a day. Greetings!
Back to zero after several days of strong urges. 34 days, not a bad run, but I need to do better than that.
What the hell is going on with all the relapses?! Lads, we can do it! I really thought I would relapse this week. I am not in the clear yet. I had a nocturnal emission a couple of nights ago, which helped, but I’m not in the clear. I’m going to ramble for a bit- I am coming to a realization but can’t quite articulate it yet. Here it goes... It occurred to me in the middle of the worst week of temptations that a relapse requires an effort. You gotta get to that website, prep the area, find a private place, light a candle and play spice girls (or whatever you guys do, did I say too much?). The point is, it requires a series of steps. And the more steps you take, the worse it is to ignore the urge. Just don’t let yourself take those steps. Resisting each step is easier than resisting the whole thing. In fact, it becomes less about resisting and more about gently guiding yourself away from problem behaviours leading to PM. I notice that it starts for me with looking at attractive women as objects of pleasure. It is worse in the summer for obvious reasons. But it is so much easier to avert my eyes than to resist PM when I have allowed myself to take all the steps that lead to it.
Checking in, and going back to the bottom of the ranking. Not good yesterday. Identify: loneliness as trigger. Need to find something productive to do when that happens.
Glad you were able to make it through Thursdays urges @Timber ! Looked like it was a tough one but not tougher that you! Great motivator my friend, well done!
reset. Got 7 days which isn’t great but better than I have been going. I diddnt log back in and had more..:: so that’s got to change. Anyway, here’s to some new long streaks for the group.
Checkin' in one week already. Don't give up we have to take the power that this has over you. Don't let that PMO tyranny run your life. I found this bible verses helpful lately Romans 6.12-18 (MSG) 12-14 That means you must not give sin a vote in the way you conduct your lives. Don’t give it the time of day. Don’t even run little errands that are connected with that old way of life. Throw yourselves wholeheartedly and full-time—remember, you’ve been raised from the dead!—into God’s way of doing things. Sin can’t tell you how to live. After all, you’re not living under that old tyranny any longer. You’re living in the freedom of God. What Is True Freedom? 15-18 So, since we’re out from under the old tyranny, does that mean we can live any old way we want? Since we’re free in the freedom of God, can we do anything that comes to mind? Hardly. You know well enough from your own experience that there are some acts of so-called freedom that destroy freedom. Offer yourselves to sin, for instance, and it’s your last free act. But offer yourselves to the ways of God and the freedom never quits. All your lives you’ve let sin tell you what to do. But thank God you’ve started listening to a new master, one whose commands set you free to live openly in His freedom! May we all can find strength in God ! Blessings to all.
Check in Monday. Bought myself a Chromebook that I use on the kitchen table where there are other people around. And I'm not working in the study where the temptation is too great....