Yesterday was Day 3 of 90 forgot to post but honestly I miss sex more than fapping so it isn't a big deal rn
Started 90 Challenges on Jan 25, 2019 Relapsed 7/201 Days Longest streak 51 days Day 6/90 no PM Day 56 of weight training Day 6 - reduced alcohol, caffeine and sugar - feeling good with no temptations today - I might succeed the 90 day challenge this time round because the disappointment I felt from not making my last 90 day (and having to give my wife $3400 from my savings as a result of a bet with her if I failed) could be enough to make me succeed, hope so anyway - moral of that experience is that this addiction is so insidious that even money can't stop it as my dopamine addicted brain would rationalize away common sense to not peak at porn - I must stay humble to the process and remember why I am happy I quit PMO: better health, peeing easier (BPH symptoms almost gone), more confident, less social anxiety, more natural around woman, more attractive to woman, stronger animus (maleness), more loving, less emotionally reactive like a roller coaster, better focus, more relaxed, more motivated, less wasted time, getting more things done, clearer thinking and less brain fog, happier all round towards everyone, especially my family - have a great NoFap day everyone
Hi everyone! Count me in. Need to get a good reboot in. Been falling off lately. Already had a lot of streaks including a 100+ days streak. Just relapsed. I can't keep doing this. I Just need to stop. So i'm in! Will post daily. Day 0 today.
0 days PMO 0 days no pop 5 days no alcohol. 1 14 day streak. 44 days no social media. No rosary. Fell. Feel like crap and am grumpy. Had a bunch of pop and junk pizza. No good. Adds to the crappy feelings. The only place I get to much sugar from is pop. I am addicted to it. Need to stop pop. Does not help this NOFAP thing. Going to change my daily Rosary to a daily chaplet of divine mercy. Does not take as long. Build up to a Rosary later. I have zero discipline. I can't get myself to do things for more than a few days. I am wanting to be whiny and say I hate my life. I am so full of anger right now! I wrote some toxic angry things. I deleted them. This is not healthy. This is toxic. Time to breathe. Have a posture correcting thing I bought some time back. A thing you lay on. Been doing that the last few days. Hopefully I keep that up. Just saw what is holding me back from doing things every day. It is my internal fight with my controlling brother. He and my mom have that muchcontrol over me. Even when they are not there. That is straight up abuse. They mademe so unsure of everything I thought and decided. They don't control me anymore. Nobody controls me. I am ahuman being. I am not to be controlled. No wonder I can't control myself. Everyone has always controlled me. Itmakes me sick. Time to diaphram breathe for 15 minutes. Then a cup of tea.Then off to work. All will be well
3 days done. A REALLY full day! Just got home super late. Supposed to be going for a hike with a friend in the morning....hope I hear my alarm!
Hang in there dude, you'll find your rhythm. I've been learning that I need to get out of my own head-space sometimes. To do that, I started using something simple and immediate that grabs my attention. Something fun. When was the last time you thought about doing something for fun? When was the last time you did something for fun, something simple? P.S. thanks for the daily laugh. I can't help but to chuckle every time I see your avatar pic.
Thank you Nines. No. I don't think I have. I think I will start doing that. I will try and think of things. Thank you. Yeah. I like how you say I will find my rhythm. I have not had any sort of structure or rhythm for the last decade. Been working in an industry where there is no steady work. Get laid off when jobs are done, never knowing when I will be laid off or when I will find another job. Just get into a rhythm and then get laid off. I am ubering now. I need to find a shift and stick with it. Do the things I love every day. Get into a nice structured life for once. That sounds awesome. Hahaha No problem for the daily laugh. Lol I am glad it is making people chuckle. Lol Thank you my friend. I will get there. Thank you for the reassurance and encouragement.
Ty ty bro! . It has been one day at a time for me. Here is my day 0 post from June 6. Time flies and here we are. No pmo or peeking testing edging etc. posting every day has helped me a lot and trying to boost and inspire others..
Gratz on the 2 months dude!! Well on your way to 90 days and beyond.. look fwd to sharing the journey with you
25/90 Today I dreamed about a kid that died 11 years ago the same night. That day I was sad but didn't cry. I chose to drink myself to oblivion. Today after the dream my tears poured like rain. And it was raining like crazy last night as well. Today marks exactly 5 years sober from alcohol. I had an urge after crying and something that felt like a chaser effect. I suppose tears also generate some chemical in the brain. In a few words I know I don't have to fap today or drink. I can live my life; mourn my passed friends and enjoy spending time with the ones I have now. Thank you nofap for this awesome community.