How early is too early? Well, I think I answered that question yesterday! haha Ended up going back to bed About 9, because I felt so weird! It did kind of set me back for the day, but I ended it on a productive note. After dinner I started writing a book! Even though I must have thought about it yesterday to even think this thought. I am not missing porn. Not this time around. I feel like it is because I am now getting more interested in other things, which is great! A sign of proper progress I think, and a really big key in this whole battle. They go hand in hand. Just giving up porn is not the magical answer to a better life. You have to also take steps, no matter how small, towards making your life better. Porn is often there as something to do out of boredom, because you have nothing else going on. Or as an excuse not to do those other things, that maybe you have wanted to do for a while. Maybe you have to do them, but just don't want to. Maybe you don't even know what they are yet! Because you haven't given yourself that chance. So, do yourself a favour. Gradually start replacing one with the other. Today. Perhaps just pick one thing that you have been meaning to do for a while. Then do it! Even just the start. You might even go on and do some more. See how it makes you feel. One step at a time, brothers, one step at a time. Hope those words inspire one or two of you at the very least 8 days done. Starting day 9 writing this with a nice cup of tea
Day 1/21. Wasn't good with the ogling yesterday, but did manage to refrain all day from looking up the video that caused me to reset, which took a herculean effort. Getting back on the horse.
1/21 Easy so far haha. JK But I remember what I did when i quit smoking, so still waiting for the real battle I am having the hardest time while thinking of girls I like or had PIV with. When I hang out with a single person (or multiple) I either like or had PIV with I feel completely normal, no strange feelings, no urges or anything. But the morning after I can't get them out of my head, I feel like I'm going to explode due to my overexcited eager libido. The first sentence was ironic, not easy at all.
Day 5, my timer might be out of sync? V busy this w/end so looking like I should get through to Monday.
Day 2/21. Managed to keep online temptation in check, but that means little as I was woefully bad with the ogling and related habits yesterday. Didn't react well to big triggers of girls dressed revealingly on the way home, and that was compounded by hearing a couple having sex very loudly from their open window while walking home. I was rooted to the spot and couldn't shut it out. I didn't end up masturbating, which was good, but I'm not at all happy that I'm letting external factors arouse me so much when I should be trying to rewire myself to my partner.