Hello you guys. I'm twenty years old dude from Poland and I suffer for porn addiction for about 12 years. There was so many episodes of it, and the main story took place in 2017. I was watching transwoman porn for about one year. I was jerking for about four times a day, when i reached 12 years old (something like that). So my dopamine levels in age of 17 while wathing "normal stuff" was so weak. I had one girl back in the days, my first love bla bla bla. I wasn't supposed to have any temptations while i was with her. So i decided to quit porn. It was WORLD WAR inside me. But i made it, i get to the point where i was finaly able to cum with her, it took 3 months. I was so happy, I started to celebrate. I get drunk, smoked some weed, and terrible things happend. My ego reach lvl 11/10 I was freaking out. That's a long story but i landed in psychiatric. Doctors diagnosed psychosis and gave me some pills. Pills totally broke my libido. So the benefits with nofap were no exsisted. I felt depressed back in the days. It took two years to stabilized my mood, and my libido. Now I'm here again. Preparing for WORLD WAR 2 inside me. Wish me luck Ps. Sorry for my english, there are no forums in my country about this. :/
Hey Amidamaru, new here as well. I hope you're doing fine with your meds now. I'm taking something for my depression/anxiety that doesn't cause libido problems so do look around for other medicines that won't cause you so many unwanted side-effects. Talk to your doctor. Have you done the 30/90 day challenge before at any stage? What was the longest you have gone without porn?
I' ve made 3 months without masturbation first. Then my life started to get very well. My libido reach heaven. Secondary I've made 3 months too but my libido for whole process was weak, So i had a chance to rewire my brain in full aspect. But I lost, started to watch instagram, then naked pictures, than my biggest enemy- "transwomen". Now It's time for another war.
Welcome warrior. You are in good hands. With focus, discipline and hard work, you can achieve your goals and get rid of pmo. I had a similar story like yours. Even worst. I failed with some girls over the years due to pied. Couldn't perform well and they just left me. I also had a thing for transwomen. I even had sex with some of these crazy "dudes with boobs" lol. But the ones i did had the body of a woman... well most of them... in the end you regret, you feel and see how fucked up it is. Just now im starting to get over this. Like i said, focus my friend, keep up with nofap you will be fine, these transwoman fetishes will fade.