I just want to say "Hi"

Hello you guys.
I'm twenty years old dude from Poland and I suffer for porn addiction for about 12 years. There was so many episodes of it, and the main story took place in 2017. I was watching transwoman porn for about one year. I was jerking for about four times a day, when i reached 12 years old (something like that). So my dopamine levels in age of 17 while wathing "normal stuff" was so weak. I had one girl back in the days, my first love bla bla bla. I wasn't supposed to have any temptations while i was with her. So i decided to quit porn. It was WORLD WAR inside me. But i made it, i get to the point where i was finaly able to cum with her, it took 3 months. I was so happy, I started to celebrate. I get drunk, smoked some weed, and terrible things happend. My ego reach lvl 11/10 I was freaking out. That's a long story but i landed in psychiatric. Doctors diagnosed psychosis and gave me some pills. Pills totally broke my libido. So the benefits with nofap were no exsisted. I felt depressed back in the days. It took two years to stabilized my mood, and my libido. Now I'm here again. Preparing for WORLD WAR 2 inside me. Wish me luck
Ps. Sorry for my english, there are no forums in my country about this. :/

 

I' ve made 3 months without masturbation first. Then my life started to get very well. My libido reach heaven. Secondary I've made 3 months too but my libido for whole process was weak, So i had a chance to rewire my brain in full aspect. But I lost, started to watch instagram, then naked pictures, than my biggest enemy- "transwomen". Now It's time for another war.