Day 4 guys. I'm 1/5 of the way to completing the challenge again. Once I hit day 20 I'm going to let that really motivate me. Because the longer the streak the more I feel like I'm leaving this addiction and becoming more normal.
Day 7. Had a strong morning wood. Because of my previous streaks and since relapsing doesn't necessarily make you lose progress, I'm getting morning woods earlier in the streak and very often. It's getting hard, I just wish I have a wet dream to relieve the tension.
Alright guys after trying the willpower method so many times i have come to the conclusion that it doesnt work. Deep down inside me something still wants porn and it will push and push me further into depression and desperation until i give in, at which point i just feel empty, hopeless and quite frankly scared. I finish exams in 11 days and start work in september. Between these two dates i am going to have no internet access. Hopefully i can finally come to terms with not having porn in my life. While doing this I will read books and try and figure out why i like pmo and how to get rid of it. I am also starting therapy soon. Its getting pretty desperate though. The thoughts are taking over my mind. Good luck to all those who are trying. The main thing is never give up. Keep adjusting your strategy and eventually youll find a way.
its 16 days now and I am getting married after the next two months. I am abstaining from PMO as I have to develop a physical relationship and that's stopping me from PMO. I hope these 90 days abstain from PMO will help in recovering from damage done to my body and brain by PMO.
Hey guys, been a while since I checked in, been keeping busy; got a better job, been reading a lot, met a cute girl from work. Unfortunately, I do succumb to urges from time to time and I feel mindful of it throughout the day though I keep a cool and humorous facade. Each time those urges pop up you have to keep in mind that it’s just not worth it. “to be self-controlled is the greatest of excellence.” -Heraclitus of Ephesus I’ve found fulfilling my purpose (being my greatest self and inspire others to do the same), following my passion (achieving self mastery) and sticking to my values help me feel much better than any amount of PMO. I’ve been addicted for most of my teenage years and that affected my social skills and self image, though now at 21 I’ve changed my life for the better. It’s a long battle but it’s definitely rewarding if you stick it out till the end. Exercise helps, establishing healthy relationships with others based on face to face interaction, practicing mindfulness. “Knowing is not enough, we just apply. Willing is not enough, we must do.” - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe Time to overcome this addiction.
Barely finishing day one, no urges and I went to bed early and woke up early feeling good. Gonna tackle the day and stay productive. Be better every single day, even if it’s just by 1%.
I am in as well. I can't just escape the 15 days mark. Let's kich these unhealthy and devil type of addiction out of world.
Hey guys, I have just started my journal.. Here's link to my Journal. Hang in there, we'll fight this shit and defeat it together. ⬇⬇ Conquest of Life