37, shitty day today, feeling very tired with lot´s of brain fog. i guess i´m still feeling the effects of the long exposure to softcore days ago. the withdrawal is all here . this comes to show once more: viewing porn/softcore is almost as bad as masturbate to porn/softcore. stay away from it. to make a good, clean and fast reboot, just engage in totally different activities. it´s so simple and makes a world of difference. word of advise.
Day 2. Yesterday I had sex with GF (My challange is still 90 days without PM, but I had good conversation with my gf about it and she agreed to support me even with not having sex for a month o so.. I am really looking forward to it! We are probably not going to take abstinence from sex in next 2 weeks because of vacation.. but when there will be chance, Im going to try it!). Im feeling really glad and fresh that I came back to challange. I know, the bad days will come but now Im able to stand them better. With new knowledge from first challange I feel almost unbeatable. Thanks everyone for support! Wish you great day!
Ya I think I am pushing myself too much. I need to take of the pressure. I will work on it now. Cheers man.
Day 21/90 and I can surely say that yesterday and today have been the most discouraging and depressing days I had in a very long time. Let's just say I feel disappointed about my sex life, which has affected my well-being all these years.
Relapsed I made one fatal mistake. I watched some nude scene and I couldn't resist my urge and I fapped. I learned that without any pornblock it is impossible so I have locked my browser and not going to unlock it unless I complete this challenge.
Hey man, I know that it's really hard to find validation from something other than your sex life. Pretty much for my entire life, I used sex as a way to feel appreciated and valued. I would manipulate women's feelings, and I would hook up with women who had a self-image that was just as bad as mine. Whenever I didn't have sex when I was hoping for it, I would feel very alone. After a while, I realized that my worth is not determined by sex. In fact, by making sex as valuable as I did, I was lowering my value as a human being. I realized that chasing sex was keeping me from my potential. They say that a genius is just someone who has found something that he is more passionate about than sex. When I took a vow of abstinence, my life began changing. I pursued my passions in learning psychology, and I was able to orient my life around meaning. I cleaned out the skeletons in my closet. Overall, I became a more competent and caring person because I wasn't worried about having sex with people. There are better things out there than sex, man. And really, when you focus on it less, it will become better.
Yup!! anyways thanks buddy...& with this I make 1 more day progress toward my goal... the journey is not easy after all it is just inside the brain but still, I will make it whatever it cost this time...day 47/90
Day 5/90 A successful day of navigated pitfalls. Not my choice of a good day but I will be happy with it.
Day 24 of no PM Day 93 of no alcohol or caffeine Day 61 of weight training - great day again today and feeling wonderful except for a sore knee - I remember Beamer said he had a sore knee during his reboot challenge so I wonder if it's a PMO withdrawal side effect ... caused by being "unbending" to PMO LOL - almost caved today on wanting a real (caffeinated) black tea today but decided to abstain and keep my streak going - zero craving for alcohol so far which is good