[365-CHALLENGE] THE THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FIVE DAYS CHALLENGE !

48 days completed.

 

365-7= approx 51 more weeks.

 

90 + 29 Days

 

Day 288, check in.

 

17/365. It's almost the longest streak I had in a while.

 

Day 0
Feeling shit...strong urges are coming.

 

5 days done!

 

Day 21

 

LXXXII
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Day 198/365

 

Still day XI. I'm writing this because I had a problem this morning. I was on the bus and suddently, I still don't know why, I saw in my mind a glimpse of a lesbian porn I watched some 5 months ago. I liked it so much that i kept fapping to it for 2 weeks, back then. It was a compilation, you know, and that kind of video is the worst one because it uses the "Coolidge" effect at its maximum power. Very damaging. And I know that porn is shit and I won't touch it ever again, but in that moment in my mind I felt a strong desire to go watching it and fap once I got home. Even now, while I'm writing this, it has come again to my mind and I'm feeling very, very bad. PLEASE, keep an eye on me, boys. Henry Jekyll, do something!

 

Keep persisting! The brain is resisting being trained. It wants the easy way out, and it knows your weaknesses. One thing to do is bounce the eyes to neutral objects around you - be calm about it, but shift your focus to something else outside of the mirage that is trying to seduce you. This thing will pass. If there's something stressing you out or some other trigger, try to get some progress done today to making your life better. Going for a walk can often do a lot of good - make it a habit!

 

“What would have become of Hercules do you think if there had been no lion, hydra, stag or boar - and no savage criminals to rid the world of? What would he have done in the absence of such challenges?

Obviously he would have just rolled over in bed and gone back to sleep. So by snoring his life away in luxury and comfort he never would have developed into the mighty Hercules.

And even if he had, what good would it have done him? What would have been the use of those arms, that physique, and that noble soul, without crises or conditions to stir into him action?”

― Epictetus, The Discourses

 

8/365 - Let's fight in this war against P!

 

I'm out of my chrisis man. I've resisted and I'm out of the chrisis. An hour ago I decided to go out a moment, did the 300 metres of my block with my bycicle as fast as I could. I got back inside my house and thought about all of this. How pathetic are we, when we believe in a lie like porn? Those girls probably earned in a month what my family earns in half a year, to lie to me, let me think they liked each other. How compulsive can we be when we fap to porn? I think that when you decide to have a PMO session, you lose your lucidity for half an hour, only to get it back after having relapsed (the typical "I feel like shit" post-porn feeling). I'm glad now, just a couple of hours later, of having resisted. As i said in my first post, for my life-changing challenge i have only one attempt. Be well, all of you, and remember: the λόγος, the human capability to take choices, should always prevale on the irrationality of porn.

 

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congratulation, best wishes to you.

 

Day 16!

 

Day 4 of 20, my first goal.

 

A champion!