The screen of life surrounds you. With a click of a button, you pause to stare at the images. The emotional trauma of loneliness is gone. You seep in euphoria. One girl, two girls etc. It becomes too much. Suddenly, you're not just looking at girls. You're looking at men too. The endless categories make you go crazy. You're not even human anymore, you are a pervert. One-Two hours have passed you by, your finished and your life force is depleted. Your dick is skinny and curves. 10 min later, you have completely forgotten what just happened. You tell yourself: "What Have I Done?" You feel empty inside. Life becomes boring, the dopamine high you get from porn, you can't find in nature. You feel awful but nobody understands what you are going thru. The doctor gives you some anti-depressants but you still feel terrible inside. You stop caring about yourself and life in general. You start to notice the slightest flaw in any girl you see. Finally, the day is over but your not yourself. You feel like something is missing. For the love of god, I will not do this ever again. This Is Why I Will not masturbate For The Rest Of My Life.
The first minutes after you finish and the screen has gone dark are truly the best motivation for quitting. The sense of quiet but profound shame surrounds you and even in your solitude, you're embarrassed.
I too am never masturbating again. I’m not necessarily abstaining from porn, but guess there will be little point without the masturbation. Any orgasms I have will be at my wife’s discretion. Keep up the good work.
I relate to this a lot. Especially the doctor giving anti-depressants, not knowing I have a PMO addiction. PMO addiction is hell. We must clear ourselves and minds
Great post thank you!! One my keys to stopping is to remember how it feels at exactly the moment afterwards. No pleasure only pain!!
Great post! I’ve found P&M to be two sides of the same coin...a cursed coin I never want in my possession for the rest of my life.