If you intentionally do this, then this is a porn substitute which means you relapsed. If your neighbors are being too loud maybe you should make them note someday. In the meantime, why not buy earplugs?
All I was saying is this is a trigger for me which initially in my mind it tells me its ok as im not watching anything but as it turns me on eventually leads to watching. Hopefully im trying to keep away from the triggers so I dont relapse. Im on 12 days since starting on this forum. Thanks for all the support, just hope I keep it up. The more I look at the counter the more it motivates me
We all have triggers. If you hear your neighbours having sex. Just blast some really loud hip-hop tunes. But then again, nothing too "relatable" lol.
It's like when I heard from the Radio that a shop in the US called Target had complaints becaue porn audio was being played over the tannoy system. So what did I do? I youtubed it. Fell into a wormhole and ended going to the dark side. The point I'm trying to make is this. IT ALL LEADS TO THE SAME ROAD. A half sexy image. Leads to that road. A sound. Leads to it. So make no excuses and don't try to justify it to yourself that its "not actually porn, so I'm ok" thats when we get unstuck (no pun intended). I've been there. Its not worth it bro.
Its just not worth it. If it happens. Fine. Let it happen. THen kill it instantly. Do not escalate. That's the hardest part. Heres' some motivation for the both of us: "Watch your thoughts for they become words, watch your words for they become actions, watch your actions, for they become habits, ... Watch your habits, for they become your character"
Your mind starts by justifying thats its not porn. Eventually you get sucked in and before long its on your screen. Hoefully it wont come to that with the help of people on here.