I completed the 14 day challenge two days ago then i did a mistake of not joining this challenge immediately.i just relapsed and realised lacking a challenge played a big part in it. I'm in starting day o lets do this.
Day 8/21 Uhh... Just dealing with loneliness today. Being a virgin just makes interacting with women (even most men) so tough for me at times. Any conversation related to sex and I just shut down. I have got to put myself out there more and realise that people in general aren't out to hurt me.
Day 15/21 Couldn't post here last three days as I was out of town. All is going great, though 2 days ago I had these urges which made me realize that it is still in me. The fight is not over yet. We may start to think that after 20 days or 30 days we are capable to handle this addiction and we put our guard down thats the time we loose. So I will keep myself strong. Years of addiction will not go away that easy. Keep fighting. And one more thing that I learned - "Do not touch your penis unless you are peeing, it can be dangerous"
7/21. feeling well. slight urges last night to masturbate. Took a few deep breaths and turned off my phone.
Day 0/21. Hard relapse. I realized that my urge has gotten stronger since I stopped meditating. I assumed meditation was just a waste of time, but my life became a struggle without it. I will continue to meditate, and now follow a 5 step plan for when I get an erection: 1. Do something to distract myself from thinking about anything that will urge me to masturbate 2. Focus on responsibilities and the stuff I need to get done 3. Change my environment away from my room, preferably to a place where it is socially unacceptable to masturbate 4. Think about consequences of having another relapse 5. Meditate for 5 minutes
Ok, here we go. Day 0 Because 21 Days seem possible, i will ad that i stop with another (non pornographic) addictive website for that period: pr0gramm.com