After a long, troublesome and bad relationship I was in, it’s safe to say that I’m at my absolute rock bottom. My entire reality has had a pradigm shift this past year from my religious beliefs, to my sexual orientation. Everything feels really confusing and some of this stuff, like the sexual orientation, I feel is a by product of letting myself getting sucked into porn due to feeling like shit about myself. Currently I have a real problem with cam sites and cam to cam interactions. I’m longing for a sense of connection to fill this void of loneliness but this only further sinks me into the pit I’ve dug for myself. Like I stated previously, I’m really confused right now but one thing I know for sure is this pesky bad habit has to go. I’ve let it control me for too long. Day 1 starts now.
Day 1 was a success yesterday. Decided to focus more of my free time and energy into writin lyrics and today I’m going to see if I can learn how to produce beats. I find music has always been a great outlet for me and making my own is great way to use time productively.
Day 2 was another success. Starting to notice an actual emotional attraction towards women again instead of simply a physical one. Temptations have been minimal but they usually are for the first 4-5 days for me. So far feeling better and still going strong. Day 3, HERE WE GO!
Your posts are very motivating, bro. Congrats on two days! Keep up the hard work and look back your shoulder with pride. May I suggest you something? Haha, it can become confusing, but this journal ought to be in the Reboot Journal Section of the forums in the 20-24 category! Kindly, read this before you post again https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...sting-privileges-stop-wasting-my-time.176409/ In the end, I applaud your hard work and keep it up! Creating music is an excellent method of release, which is both productive and creative. Keep fighting hard, and reap the rewards.