It lasted for about 10 seconds I believe, then some part of me felt strange and stopped the video. I woke shortly after in mixed feelings. I felt the rush in my heart and brain for seeing a new body. Instead of beating up myself, I guess it's better to be grateful and mindful that my decision on quitting P for good is being realized subconsciously. Self-acceptance helps. Bedsheets were clean, another win I am on day 92. Allow me to quote from my favourite philosopher: "The house where you go on throwing into the basement things that you want to do but you cannot, because of social conditions, culture, civilization. But they go on collecting there, and they affect your actions, your life, very indirectly. Directly, they cannot face you--you have forced them into darkness, but from the dark side they go on influencing your behavior. They are dangerous, it is dangerous to keep all those inhibitions inside you. It is possible that these are the things that come to a climax when a person goes insane. Insanity is nothing but all these suppressions coming to a point where you cannot control them anymore. But madness is acceptable, while meditation is not--and meditation is the only way to make you absolutely sane." - OSHO .
Dreams are entirely subconscious and out of our control. I'm glad you're looking at it as a sign of deeper healing and not a problem. Good for you!
Hi, Same for me, since day 14-15 I'm frequently having this kind of dream. But just as you did, I have always stopped on time. This is a pretty good thing IMO. Even our subconscious is strong enough to keep P away from us.
Just happened to me last night. The thing is I don't stop watching, I even ejaculated 2 times on that dream. Going for the third and fortunately I woke up because loud noise in my home. I felt a huge relief knowing it was a dream, it feels so real. I'm in day 58. Hoping to never masturbate again, ever. (Sorry, bad english)
I like your word Deeper Healing. Been giving a lot of thoughts to life recently, and I honestly considered to rock the world to pick up as many girls as possible after awhile no PMO. I didn't, not that I think it's inappropraite (attraction is all natural and I think at least some of them deserve to be addressed), but something deep, big and dark held me back. Another dream came by, I undug an emotional wound that was about the biggest rejection I ever received. I woke up in disbelief and strong emotions, hack, but thankfully this event can now be let go. So deeper healing is not about completing a 90 120 or 180 days strike, it's really about rewiring and stripping off the junk within.
Thank you for your kind words, @whatrichme. It sounds like you made an amazing breakthough! I'm very happy for you! Keep up the great work!
Yesterday same thing happened to me In my dream i was about to open a P and somehow remembered that i am in nofap challenge and closed. That was really weird
