hi to everyone... thanks for reading my post... i had started PM from the age of 14..SINCE THEN IT iS almost 14 years got into PM loophole ...never ever thought will be addicted to it like drugs...MY collage,career,got a big fall...wanted to achieve my goal ...whenever steps towards my goal...always PM come in between... always feel sleepy,tiredness,memory loss..feeling like nothing their in life without PM... porn has struck deep deep in my brain...fear of everything..not having guts to try out new things in life... cant travel alone..... i had given up PM several time ..maximum duration was 3 months...felt amazing,energetic,amazing thing happened,but due to some pressure again done PM...IT JUST make temporary relief ..but don't want that kind of relief... tried every thing ..but still relapse...dont know what to do...lacking will power to give up...anyone please help me really depressed,cant handle any more,sometimes feeling just suicide and my life..cant handle it anymore
Hi. Welcome to forum! Make sure you create a personal journal thread in Reboot Logs section and blog there on a regular basis. As well as just generally be active participant in various forum discussions. I recommend this to everybody new here because it's the major thing that helped me when I was first starting. Just lurking on forums, reading and learning is great. But it usually is so much more powerful to engage. It helps to keep us motivated and accountable when we are active part of community. And keeps this in front of our minds so we don't forget about importance of it and slip away in our old habits. Sharing is also therapeutic. This is a major reason why AA meetings work so good. But that was developed before internet era. These days we can get most of the same benefits online through communities like this. So don't underestimate the power of active participation. I would also like to suggest you to look into mindfulness meditation. It has helped me personally tremendously to learn how to deal with urges and triggers. It takes a while to get good at it and notice results, so you need to be consistent with it, but once you do it's very powerful. It has been used by sages for thousands of years to deal with various issues of the mind. And in recent decades the science is also catching up to what ancient sages have know for centuries. Meditation these days are widely used as very effective tool by psychologists for treating addiction and by neurologists for supporting recovery of the brain. It is a great exercise for the brain the same way as jogging is great exercise for the body. Check out this Ted talk, it gives a good idea of what's it about when it comes to philosophy. As far as practical side of it there is this awesome smartphone app called Headspace for guided meditations to get you started. If you feel suicidal I think the best thing to do is reach out for help from professional. I am not really qualified to tell you how to deal with these thoughts. But meditation usually seems to work wonders for people. Definitely look into that. Wish you lot's of strength and success in your reboot journey!
I would like to second what "the serpent of fire" said. For me I have found that online support (like what is found in AA) is imperative. I have also found that being able to be completely honest with myself and with others is a must. I believe SAA calls it rigorous honesty. For so long I didn't even realize that I had been lying to myself. I didn't even realize it. I can speak for myself that when I first got into recovery from PM, it was scary and I did not know how I would give it up. But I learned that truely it is a day at a time. A moment at a time. And for me if I just focus on this day before long I will see all the days stacked up together.
thanks bro....of course will start journal....thanks for ted talk videos... any professional consult online...
May the power be with you, my friend. Hold. We are all human and we all have our weaknesses. But we also have the willpower to overcome our weaknesses. Good luck.
I want to be a porn recovery coach one day. That would be a cool job. There's some basic understandings in nofap which is in the getting started guide or the your brain on porn videos. I also get that knowledge when I read the forums every day. I get reminded of it in different ways by different people. I wonder what I would say if I were a nofap coach. I think that most people help each other by sharing experience, strength and hope. That gives other people something to learn from without telling them what to do.
Today watched little bit porn...but still happy...some part of my brain is starting to rejecting PM....it started telling no please don't watch....conecen conc on career...
