, today is day 53 of 60 90 and 120 hopefully everything is going to start getting a little bit easier soon I have a tentative right now then swap 1 deal for another by drinking a little bit too much the agreement as we only have like one or two drinks I've been doing like 3 or 4 when I'm feeling antsy or whatever so I'm trying to avoid responding to the urges so I shouldn't be I got to conquer that orders to that's all it is the same thing as the dopamine in my brain is trying to cover up for me I'm trying to use alcohol the cover up for not having to feel certain things too I remember feeling is human and it's normal
Day 2. I'm already feeling better about myself, and I'm loving the extra sleep-time that I would have otherwise spent doing PM!