That's a tough one. To be honest, it kind of sounds like a cop out. What kind of trigger is he talking about? There are a lot of work arounds for triggers to make books possible. Mine just doesn't like to read. He retains more by listening rather than seeing so I try to get him audio books whenever possible, especially cd's because he likes to listen when he drives.
The way he said it was that if he reads about porn, he might start imagining it. I guess even just the word porn is a trigger for him? Books are easier I guess, I was more encouraging him to come here and read other people's stories, but I could definitely see more triggers here than in books. I don't know. I agree, I think it's more of a cop out than anything else.
The insomnia was REAL last night. I mean, out of control. Up from 1:30am to 3am, then again from about 3:15 to 4:30. Then up for good at around 6:30. I think I need to see a doctor about this rash that I caused with my anxious itching. It's on my breasts. A very good portion of the skin. I don't know if it's the sweat I release while sleeping (with like 3 blankets on, mind you, I have to because he has to have a fan running and it freezes me out), or if it's just straight up anxiety. I've tried lotions, tea tree oil, other essential oils, medicated cream, tried sleeping without blankets so I can't sweat (torture, causes anxiety regardless), I feel like I've tried just about everything. But I have to pick at it, it's a compulsion at this point. What the hell can I do?
Well... He M'd this morning, said it was a chaser effect from last night. No P, he claims. Happy freaking Valentine's Day.
Thank you. I'm okay for the time being. At least he told me, right? I just wish he'd done something to prevent this.
Yes, honesty is good. I'd rather know than not know. But you are right, there are a million other things he could do besides M.
I'm sorry. This sucks. We always say Valentine's Day doesn't mean anything, but it always kinda does. Even if it's just a nice text or something. And then they go and fuck up like this, because I think we all want sex if we can have it on V day. But really, even if it wasn't V day. He's far enough into this process that the chaser effect isn't an excuse anymore. I'm so sorry.
Sry about the relapse . We each had one and I found other things so your not alone. Hope you’re doing okay. Things have been crazy lately so I’m just getting caught up. Hugs to you!
Hey lady.... Hope all is well. I know that you like to dip out on the occasion.... Just know whatever you are doing and wherever you go, you are cared for and you are missed.