DAY 85!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have been cheating - I have had to write on a piece of paper everyday "DON'T" I put it on my computer screen. Not that I want to go. i am just so stressed out that I fear I'll allow myself to wander only "to take the edge off", or because mindlessly it would be easy to let myself wander. So...DON'T And I am hanging on. I don't know if it gets easy though... Another issue - I seems that girls have lost my attention. I don't notice them as much, I do my thing and move on. A little of it is that I keep myself from looking too as I "don't want to get turned on" but now it seems like I don't get turned on. It's weird. DAY 85!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Day 4/90. Going stronk. Haha well done, you are beginning to attain mastery... If you purposefully looked at a girl, you would have no problem, but you are choosing not to and so are not aroused... It's the best of both worlds.
Day 16. I had some urges today. Stress related which is one of my triggers. I was able to take my mind off of it and get through the day.
74 days in and I'm back to that point where my urges are hitting me again. I don't understand why. But I refuse to give up. My name is getting on that wall and I will be cured to some sort of degree in the near future. Well I know this is only the beginning of my journey but I'm good to move on 74 down...16 more to go
oh boy... i feel something... i really wish flatline can be a bit longer in a wired way... BUT everything is good for now! another day!
Day 25 I am foccusing more on my goals and can withstand more pain in order to archieve them. #strength