Not special, that's for sure. Just know I'm addicted to porn since I've been in the PMO cycle for more than 25 (30?) years, even as a married man. Not a super addict either. Just addicted. And I'm beating one addiction (alcohol) one day at a time and have been for 11+ years, so I know it's just a matter of letting my brain get rewired and my chemicals get sorted out. Going to take some time, hell, I'm still on day 0 because I looked at porn today. Really wanted to do the deed to completion but didn't because I am already familiar with the guilt and shame that comes after masturbating to orgasm with porn.
I'm standing on ground zero and after the last relapse my head is still buzzing... I don't want to fail I will not fail I have to not fail I just cannot take it any more So.. After bitching about it once again.. Yes I'm in
Really struggling today, I've been talking to a bunch of cute girls lately and anytime I see their pictures on messenger I get so turned on
so day 1 is done, i didn't relapse but today i experienced social anxiety. it was proper anxiety, for the first time. just another reason to quit porn.
Day 0/7: I've been trying the 30 day challenge, but at this moment i need a smaller challenge. 7 days seems about right. Day 0.
Day 6/7. Having weird moments of libido/thoughts/desires - not so much urges per se, more gutteral and ... whole body(?) as opposed to a localized craving. I guess like the difference between a craving and hunger.
