Hi there! My name is the Arock and I am a college student learning Music production and Mixing. I have been going about life with a porn addiction but I never cared to see it as a problem. I would have feelings of guilt after a PMO, but I never admitted it to myself. About a year ago I moved away from home for college and it has been the worst year of my life. I am in this awesome school were I learn about making and mixing music but, I have a destructive habit that is hindering my learning and making new friends. I have doubled my PMO over this year. It has made learning harder with this new brain-fog I have been having. It has made me socially awkward. (I was fairly outgoing in my hometown.) I am losing my memory. (I forgetting my favorite music that inspired me to go to this school.) BUT THE WORST PART, I have begun to lose my "creative juice." At the begging of this year I could freestyle off the top of my head, make a full song, with lyrics, in 2 hours and I was beginning to jump into the local music scene. Well IT STOPS NOW. I need to but this childish behavior in the past. I found this website 2 days ago and I joined because I need help. If anyone can help me with resources, stories of inspiration or a talk buddy, I would appreciate it. I'm slightly confused on how to use this site.(I read the get started but, I am still a bit lost.) I believe that with a community, I can quit this. You can't do this alone and it is so hard to talk to people in person about it. But I am putting faith in God and this community that I, no, WE can do this.
