I'm 20 days clean. I haven't gone this long without PMO since age 9. I've been so angry (up and downs of reboot) lately. I don't know how to deal with all this extra testosterone. It's like second puberty.
Yeah. I know that feeling. Around day 10-12 of a streak of no PMO it usually happens to me. I kinda of feel more agressive. Like if someone messed with me I would punch them in the face. Mike Tyson way! It's not an impulsive thing though. I think fear has less impact in us and we don't care so much. We "feel" we have energy to be courageous in a way and don't take any shit from anybody. It's kind of empowering. But it can be draining too. Well, sports or doing exercise is a great helper. Or trying to redirect your agressiveness and energy to other things like studying, reading, playing an instrument and other "constructive" things. Well, now that I'm thinking about it I think meditation can help greatly. Stay strong!
This is a great post, I posted something similar last week I think. It was about day 13 or 14 where I found myself becoming incredibly angry, that type of angry where you want to break something and you don't care if IT breaks you lol. Yes! Exercise helps immensely! Or as the days continue now I'm becoming interested (and holding that interest) in things I had never cared about before. Cold showers actually make me happy now. What normally captivates you?
I haven't reached 20 days yet I can't imagine how brutal that must be but I know running really helps me when I'm having emotional issues. I would highly recommend giving running a try if you can. Weight lifting is a good outlet for many people as well so you may consider that. Stay strong my friend
Quick anger also a sign of weakness...it signifies that your nerves cant handle that much pressure!Stronger you become calmer you get...still in today's depression prone world everyone gets angry but all that matters is how prone you're to losing your temper?How you quickly you can channel it and how you can channel it?Key to improvement is practice and practice!Like when you practice nofap...you make your brain learn that masturbation n porn are not an answer to all your troubles so when it cant have something it'll throw fits so its more of psychological thing n then biological cause i've seen some very strong n authoritative man in society who dont lose their cool easily n i think that makes them the real Winner!So point is...your brain is learning!You're learning how channel that pent up pressure,anxiety and cravings so more you'll endure more you'll become stronger! Stay strong!
I forgot to say above that comedy movies can work too. The last ones I saw were "The other guys" and "Ted". Very cool movies. Well, I think our brain isn't used to process or deal with the "excessive" testosterone. If we began PMOing in early puberty the brain didn't get used to deal with the retaining of our masculine energy. It never reached to a treshold because we were draining ourselves constantly. I think the brain will get used to deal with the "normal" amounts of testosterone in our bodies. When we talk about bouts of anger I think we all can relate to this scene "Wolverine's Berserker Rage...". Great scene to inspire you running. And no one can beat wolverine's agressiveness...
I was just watching that the other week, a great motivation for staying in shape! Being able to help those you care about and still being successful after years of drama and heartache. Way longer for Wolverine though lol. In past jobs people have underestimated me and I reacted with anger (not ouright of course) but when I channeled that properly STILL DO TODAY I prove people wrong and lift myself up in the process.
My advice is focus on yourself. That thrill will fade, dont chase it as it can lead you to relapse. Everytime i see someone mentioning nofap i see them talking about testosterone and they feeling more masculine but this is about brain change and addiction not exactly about testosterone
Why are you angry ? what does your body try to say to you ? and how can you manage this emotion ? maybe an other point of view ! if i were totaly this person, i would have did the same thing Its maybe true that with ''nofap'' you emotion are a little more 'expresse' ( its life !!! you are alive ) however you can ACT on this , you can choose to feel this or this way
I see your point. As you said, this is about brain change. Testosterone plays a small part in that neurochemical process, but a part nonetheless.
Something I discovered recently: if you're really angry with someone, attack them in your imagination. Bad memory annoying you? Change the memory with your imagination. Hint: it's imagination, it doesn't have to be realistic.
Yeah YOU HAVE CONTROL attack them in you imagination ? why not you can also try to ''forgive them'' because they are humain , or try to understand what can i ''learn'' from that , what really happening right now ? you will see , you have not the same emotion when you really know whats going on