Before Nofap i was watching the worst categories of porn on a daily basis (nothing illegal tho) and i always thought that findom is the most retarded bullshit ever who the fuck gets aroused by throwing money away wtf Due all those findom threads on nofap i got curious and thought ill message one of these gay ass thots and when she asks for money ill just send here that 'sike nigga you thought' meme and block that bitch. *some time later* (Dont remember how long i smoke so much weed i have no sense of time at all) Im addicted to findom and lost over 1000€ already I smoked crack once and i can tell you it feels EXACTLY the same, it for real feels like a crack rush Ofc my bpd ass gets addicted to everything...drugs, social media, pmo and cutting aint enough (fr id rather be addicted to crack it feels the same but its cheaper and taste like cocaine lul) So thanks for nothing i guess... Is it even possible to recover in my case? I have bpd and i have multiple addictions, for example if i quit smoking weed i start cutting again, if i stop that i pmo until my hand falls off, if i stop that i smoke weed all day long and so on And somehow deep inside i dont even want to recover...i just want to die
Hello, I’m sorry to hear that you are struggling. Rebooting has its ups and downs, just like life. We see many people experiencing both the ups and downs during the reboot, and though it may be hard to see now, these feelings you are having won’t last forever. It will get better with time, if you are patient and wait. In the meantime, please seek professional help. I know the idea of calling a helpline might terrify you, but in times of crisis, we often need someone their to put our lives in perspective. So please contact someone who can help and don’t hang up on them. The International Association for Suicide Prevention maintains a list of suicide prevention hotlines for countries all over the world. Also, if you don’t feel up to actually talking to someone on the phone, StopSuicide maintains a list of online instant messaging and chat suicide prevention resources. You are not alone in this. There are ways to treat depression. Please contact people that can help you. Being depressed often makes it feel like you don’t have any more options. But that is a lie. That is just the depression talking. These feeling you have won’t last forever. We are in this with you, and we will all be cheering for you to get through this!