3 years ago I was hooked on all things porn and vice. I was stressed as fuck at work. I was visiting rub n tug massage palours and engaging in phonesex, cybersex and watching porn at great personal cost to myself and my marriage. 3 years ago to this day is the last time I visited a rub n tug. I came home after a night of heavy drinking and stopped in at one of those places. It was so seedy. Anyway I was hungover and guilt ridden the following morning and confessed to my wife. We had an almost newborn at the time. I was in a depressed and anxious cycle of self loathing. She didn't kick me put but obviously she was shattered. In the last three years I have taken stock of my life and reflected on where I want to be and have taken on this addiction. I am not perfect but as of today: I am 3 years since seeing a rub n tug (i'll never go back). I am 60 days PMO free. I exercise and meditate daily. I have taken full ownership of my addiction. I listen to motivational podcasts and read literature by David Goggins, Jocko Willink and Jordan B Peterson. I limit my alcohol intake I am so much happier now, i'm no longer anxious or guilty, I am proud of myself and eager to continue this journey. I have a clear head and I can walk tall knowing I am not hiding my issues or betraying my wife. We can all do this guys and girls. Thank you to this forum for being a support along the way.
Good job man! For making your life better! I think eventually your life has become something you want it to be!
Good for you man I can relate to the guilt because of this stuff being married, it’s very difficult to deal with emotionally I wish you all the power you need
Honestly if ever you feel like you can't do it or you are not strong enough I promise you that you can. All your excuses are lies. Get comfortable with being uncomfortable. We can all do this. I am not extraordinary. I'm just a guy who is sick of my life and chose to change it for the better