Do you binge when you relapse?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by ultrafabber, Nov 18, 2018.

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Do you binge when you relapse?

  1. No, I masturbate only once then i am back on the wagon

    2 vote(s)
    12.5%
  2. Yes, i masturbate multiple times in the first day(s)

    11 vote(s)
    68.8%
  3. I masturbate once but i prolong it for 20-30 minutes or more

    3 vote(s)
    18.8%
  1. ultrafabber

    ultrafabber Fapstronaut

    I added a third answer that would technically be binging behavior as well - prolonging the act for a very long time to get more pleasure.

    I am curious what the behavior is for most of us.

    In my case, prior to nofap i was masturbating almost daily and usually 2 times/day. Then i started nofap and i had periods of abstinence followed by massive binges (1 week), then abstinence followed by 1-2 days of binges, then abstinence followed by 1 day of binge. Binges would consist of both multiple masturbation sessions and long time/session. Now i'm no longer technically binging but if i relapse i prolong the session for 1h+.

    I was able to pull longer streaks (2-3 months) but nothing was worse than relapsing into a binge. It usually felt there was as much regression as progression when a streak ended in a binge. I think "Not binging in a relapse" is more important than a "Long streak"

    If anything, looking back i was using a long period of abstinence to just stroke my ego and confirm to myself i'm not addicted.
     
    Last edited: Nov 18, 2018
  2. I've been on NoFap since July, and since then, I've had periods of abstinence and relapses. When I relapse, yes I binge. I've also noticed that the periods of abstinence make the binging worse than if I did not do the period of abstinence. While on NoFap, during my binges I've even progressed to other kind of porn that I was repulsed by previously. So all around, if I'm trying abstinence, I have to go all the way, because relapsing is so much worse. I don't know what it is. I think during these relapses, I allow myself to "indulge" even more than usual, because I've abstained and know I will probably try to abstain again eventually. Like I'm trying to make my relapses "count", so I go all out with them. And that is really not good for the overall recovery
     
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  3. I almost always binge when I relapse. Probably 5-6 times over the course of a couple days (usually weekends). I usually have one session where I edge for awhile and then feel like a piece of shit afterwards and decide to get myself together again, only to repeat and rinse. I sometimes wonder if I was better off before I started nofap. I should also mention that I experience 2-3 days of terrible insomnia once I restart a new streak. I relapsed last night and today so it looks like I won't be getting much sleep tonight.:(