Day 0 I didn't slept long. Zest for action, zest for life. I can do this. I will do this. See you in 14 days!
Oh there's something missing ... Right now I'm 100% commited. I know I have to be in this state, talk like this, think like this and I know this will work. I know what I'm doing. This is not positive thinking, this is identity change. But ... who would believes an addict who for the umpteenth time promises recovery? at that right after relapse? Even I myself can't avoid holding a little bit of this very reasonable disbelief. However it's so crucial for me, that I believe in me. NOW. And I hope some of you can still believe in me as well. It's like magic. It works ONLY WHEN you believe in it. So what is missing? I have to put something at stake in my commitment! If I fail the 14-day-Challenge I donate $100 to NoFap® What counts as a fail? - willingly using porn or subs for arousal, willingly masturbating, designedly going on a porn site, MO, PMO What do I mean by willingly? - that the mind, the frontal cortex if you will, had the chance to intervene but did not. After the 14 days I will probably extend this personal Challenge to 30 days. And I also want to donate if I succeed. I think after 30 days I will donate $15 or buy something from the nofap-store. But first let me finish the 14 day as the first step. And now something funny
Now onto day 3 and I gotta say it is becoming more difficult, random things are giving me urges, and it's hard to resist. But I will prevail!
Day 6 finish~~~~~ Half way to go Day 7 I am Coming~~~~~~~~~~ Hold on Its finished 7Days (damn its too busy this week lol) Facing Day 8