@BlackWhiteLotus Don't give up dude! I had to reset my counter on the weekend. No P, just MO... but still. Let's dust ourselves off and do this again. Day 3 for me and feeling ok.
Day 5 from my last reset. But day 15 from my last porn viewing. I am really missing my highs now from porn, and I am starting to do activities that I know can lead to porn, like watching you tube videos that are sexy. I am not sure what to do now. Is this a phase that will pass?
End of day 1: It's really not that easy to regain the motivation once i relapsed Being under stress really makes me fap. I have my healthy coping mechanisms ....in theory...like taking a walk or meditation, but it doesn't always work. Last time i was alone in my, having had to do a shit ton of work. But instead of working i was procrastinating until i started to fap. Holding myself accountable when noone is watching is hard.
Update day 2: Really dragged myself out of my bed today, felt incredibly tired. But i know what to expected the first 3 days, so i'm mentally kind of prepared. I think it really helps building up small successes, so that it becomes easier resisting the temptation.
So, I relapsed this week. Now begins the slow process of picking myself up and trying again. In my last update, I said I was really missing the highs of porn. I think I was experiencing triggers during my week, like stress, lack of sleep and lack of exercise. I also think my brain was doing what it has always done, in response to these triggers, trying to get me to return to old habits, for a dopamine fix. The crazy thing was, I knew that my brain was doing this and I really wanted to find another way. I got some great suggestions from this website on what to do in danger areas like the one I experienced. But for some reason, maybe fatigue or stress, I lacked the motivation to put these measures in place. Like going for a walk or getting away from you tube. I suspect, for the first 90 days or so, I need to put some filters on my pc while my brain is rebooting. And I need to keep thinking of ways to respond to triggers. Thanks once again guys for your support. But Day 1 for me again....
You made a mistake, you have learned from it. Since you have done it before, you know you have it within you do do it again.